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ava's blog 2 weeks ago

the first six months of 2026

First half of the year has passed, only half of the year left. 2026 is a difficult year for me so far. At the end of 2025, I wished for more rest this year. I didn’t do that yet. I pushed harder in different ways and I just can’t keep doing that. For 1.5 years now, I have been going extra hard in everything I do - I asked for more work at work, I created new opportunities and roles for me there, I blogged longer informative posts that took a lot of my knowledge and research, I completed more exams in my part time degree than ever before, I started and finished the certificate to be a data protection consultant, I attended conferences, I started volunteering, I went harder on my fitness, and so on. I do that to make up for my severe illness in 2024 and because of how a chronic illness turns everything into a pressing matter (fear of relapse, fear of no longer getting to do something, urge to maximize good times etc); and I can no longer keep it up. I need a longer break where I can just exist. I need to allow myself to do less in my part time degree and accept that it will postpone my graduation, I need to stop doing court case summaries for a month for noyb, I need to stop blogging for a while so I am not always working on some big essays and reading sources and running to keep up with articles and papers, and so I don’t always have a full inbox with like 50 emails to answer. I need to stop reading my web reader (RSS) and the Discover page. I can’t scale back work, so it has to be everything else. I want to enjoy life for a while and not always feel like I got something to prove, something to chase, something to keep up, something to get back to as soon as possible. And the thing is, I had so much fun stuff planned the first half of this year. I didn’t build those experiences up in my head and I didn’t have unrealistic standards, yet all of them kinda left a bad taste in my mouth when they happened. Travels, courses, conferences, restaurants, whatever. Everything I looked forward to had something difficult and disappointing about it, or had this Monkey’s Paw thing I mentioned in my other post. So I no longer feel like even planning nice things for myself and my wife. I’d rather save the energy, time and money. And that's sad, so I need to take some time to change that. It adds to the general burnout. I notice my impatience is worse, I get snappier, less forgiving, feeling more like someone’s fault or error is done in malice rather than accidental or born out of cluelessness/obliviousness. I no longer want to explain anything, elaborate, or help people, because I feel like I have to conserve my energy and efforts, as most interactions with others have a severe imbalance where I do most of the work. This would be the opposite if I wasn’t feeling burnt out. I react more defensively than usual if you point out small, irrelevant, inconsequential mistakes or make small requests for things I don’t care about changing. I retreat, I wanna be alone more, I wanna focus even more on personal projects that only involve me in isolation (and no other people, location, etc.) because those don’t let me down. I crave social interaction, yet listening to people or reading what they write is like nails on a chalk board. It’s a confusing time to be in, because I more or less get everything I want with some exceptions, but in a warped way where it doesn’t make me happy and is always accompanied with some annoying twist or extra price (figuratively). Nothing just flows. I have to micromanage everything and deal with ridiculous hurdles. I have stress “dreams” where I am half asleep, having hypnagogic hallucinations how it’s my turn in something (usually a board or card game happening on my bed) and I can’t figure out what people want me to do and they get impatient and urge me to finally hurry up, so I flee (sleepwalk around the apartment) before waking up and walking back to bed. In other such dreams, I am convinced I forgot to do something I promised I would do in a different reality/parallel world (?), but I can’t quite understand what I owe and how to do that thing, it’s incredibly vague and confusing, and I walk away from the bed to avoid the harassment by these dream people about it until I wake up and walk back as well. Those two repeat so often. Probably once a week. The feelings don’t leave me after I wake up, like I genuinely feel guilty and stressed even when awake and my brain still tries to decipher what I forgot to do and what I owe and that I’m running out of time? I haven’t bored myself purposefully nearly as much as I want to, need to and used to. There is always a blog post I want to write or continue; an article, book, blog post or paper to read; a video to watch; something to study; work; gym. I notice I'm desperately craving to do these things, and do them, yet also feel like I have to force myself through it. Like it takes an intense amount of energy and focus. I need a lot more time to do them, lots of micro breaks and distractions, and it all feels so difficult internally. I feel exhausted. Even when stuff is very easy and I want to do it. It’s like my brain is full, nauseous, sick. It screams at me to stop. My memory/retention is so shit, too. I have never said " I don't remember that. " ever as much in my life as I did this month. What adds to me not being able to stop is that it all feels mundane and harmless. Just one more thing. And they’re all things I do all the time, and things I am expecting myself to do, that are standard function, default. I understand when others burn out because bad timing of horrific events, like their house burned down while the pet is sick and grandma died and they just lost your job or something. Or: Insanely stressful high stakes job working 50-70 hours a week. But none of that applies to me. I just do normal things. And I don’t wanna be someone who does less. I want to do it all. My chronic illnesses play into it. You can be chronically ill, but you are supposed to work and act like everyone else and achieve things and work on yourself. You cannot be visibly ill, you cannot do markedly less, you cannot struggle with a basic task or workload. You cannot let yourself go. You cannot waste yourself. Otherwise you are giving in, you’re a lost cause, you do nothing to help yourself, you make your illness your personality, you use your illness as an excuse. You’re not an inspiration, and that’s kinda all you’re good for if you are forever sick. You are supposed to reassure everyone that chronic illness doesn’t alter life much and that life can go on unchanged and you can totally achieve everything you would have if you weren’t sick. If you cannot be used for this cause, you are discarded by society. There is a pressure to not let that happen to me, especially when my wife depends on me. Anyway, before I end up in the kind of burnout that makes you completely unable to work a job for most of your life, I have to change things. Just putting some self care things on my todo list doesn’t help, as it is just another obligation and doesn’t make me feel better. I just put it on the list because it is supposed to be good for me and a productive way to deal with stress. Like, what sounds better in our current society: That you slept all day to rest and watched some Simpsons, or that you did some yoga and then had a bath with 5 products to make you prettier and then journaled and then went on a walk? But I actually need to do the former for once. Which is what I have been doing a lot the past week. Lounging around, letting my mind wander, napping, just existing and breathing, like a cat sprawled on the sofa. I need to do things freely, and not do straining things all day, and let myself not do things that you can be measurably good or bad at. No care about consistency. I feel like I arrived at small versions of this burnout every now and then over the years, did something to help it for a while, and then experienced it again. And every time, it took a shorter while to relapse, and it felt worse, and it felt like I needed more rest and relaxation than I could realistically give. I only ever gave enough to function again, to make it work, to take the edge off, delay the worst. Like a day here and there doing little to nothing. Nothing more, no changed behavior moving forward. Something has to change permanently so I don't always run into this same issue over and over again, risking my mental health and my ability to do my hobbies and work. :) I still have to figure out where my sweet spot is between my ambition and what my body can give. I don't mind giving 200% for a time, just not forever. It seems like 1.5 years is my limit. With that said, I am gone the entirety of July. I won't blog 1 , I won't reply to emails until August, I won't read your posts. Friends can still reach me via Matrix and Signal. Reply via email Published 30 Jun, 2026 There is one announcement that I'll likely publish, that's it. ↩ There is one announcement that I'll likely publish, that's it. ↩

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ava's blog 2 weeks ago

rose ▪ bud ▪ thorn - june 2026

Reply via email Published 30 Jun, 2026 My wife and I visited a jewelry-making class, and I made a ring! We met cool new people to play Magic the Gathering with. I bought new furniture for my home to use the space for efficiently, and I love the new setup. My wife baked incredibly gorgeous and tasty bread. It's pride month, and my balcony has a rainbow flag and a trans flag flying for the time. I bought a little alien plushie, and two new books. I found new black tea I enjoy! Golden Seylom from Laos. I accidentally ordered way too much, but that's ok. I'm proud of the progress I make at the gym and the visual changes in my body. Been more into music this month, and rediscovering music I haven't listened to in years, or new songs by those artists I had missed in the meantime (from Tame Impala and JAWNY, mostly). Managed to do an injection all by myself for the first time. Cold water was restored in my apartment (context: for almost 3 weeks, I only had hot water). Finding new/additional furniture for kitchen and bathroom to have more storage there as well. Going to take a step back in July and not read my RSS feed, the Discover page, not blog, not read any articles or papers, etc. to truly focus on recovering from stress, do less in total, and relax. I hope I can do it, and I hope I don't immediately feel like catching up afterwards and land right back where I started mentally. Building up the new role of data protection coordinator at my workplace has been extremely messy. I struggle against the general culture of distrust, hierarchies and knee-jerk rejection of anything new, and hatred of anything data protection related. I've been having so many meetings, and I have so much to prove. It feels like I have 3 people on my side, and that is it. Scheduling meetups with people was hard! There is always something going on, which is understandable, but still frustrating. I wish I could see some people more and keep more in contact :( I miss forced proximity. I felt like I had to chase after too many things for a follow-up or a reply lately. I asked people to hang out, received answers after days had passed, sometimes even after the suggested date had already passed. I called a company to fix my water issue, they said they’d call back, they never did. I wrote an email to my building management, no reply. Had to call them and sit through a phone queue to get through to them. It’s like I have to beg for crumbs and keep on top of everything because the other side just cares less or not at all. I felt like while many of my wishes and desires come true, it ends up being a monkey's paw situation, where the result has a strong downside or is implemented as shittily as possible. I struggled with a bad mental health episode that is now over, and a lack of appetite and some sleep issues. I seem to have become a lot more sensitive to violence and gross stuff in media, so I had to stop watching some series (for now) or risk going to bed in a sad and anxious mood. I had to have some tough private discussions. Found out the office layout is getting restructured in July and I’m getting moved from my office into a shittier one with different people. It shouldn’t bother me this much, but it does. I’m really mentally attached to keeping things how they are in my office environment and always having the same desk to go to, and this will destabilize me for a while, even if it’s something very small to others. I’m a bit oversensitive in this regard, and always have been. What makes it harder is that while the move is mandated from above, it is completely disorganized and no one seems to be tasked with doing or planning it properly, so that creates more uncertainty and anxiety for me. If I come into the office and it's suddenly done without warning, I might have a full on meltdown in the toilet, which would be annoying and embarrassing, and something I would like to avoid. The less fun effects of autism.

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ava's blog 2 weeks ago

enduring the heat wave in germany

I live in an apartment that first gets heated up on one side before noon, then later from the other side. My kitchen is especially hot each year because it has a huge bay window with no shutters installed. My strategies for keeping cool have been to air out everything at night, and if possible draw in and circulate air via a fan during some of it. Then as soon as the sun is coming up, closing windows, lowering the existing outside shutters so the sun can’t heat up the glass or insides, and always keeping the kitchen door closed so the heat is contained within. I avoid opening the windows during the day to not let heat in, except if I really need fresh air or the humidity is too high. Humidity is the thing that is wrecking us the most in this, which is why it is often futile to ask people elsewhere how they deal with these high temperatures when those people live in very dry climates. The humidity messes with your body’s ability to exude heat, and in worst case, results in the wet bulb effect . That is also why even people from hotter countries can suddenly struggle elsewhere (like Europe), together with the angle at which sunlight hits Earth at that area being different (a lower sun angle spreads the same amount of energy over a larger area, making it feel cooler, while a higher angle concentrates energy on a smaller area, increasing warmth). This is why fans with water cooling and tips like hanging a wet T-shirt in front of a fan, constantly misting yourself or wearing wet clothes etc. can sort of backfire and make your home a bit more unbearable, depending on the circumstances. I also have a fan with water cooling with optional cooling bricks/batteries, and it’s currently on because we hang out in front of it, but I’m mindful of when I turn that mode on and for how long. In the next few weeks, we are planning to add sun protection foil to some windows, and when the extreme demand is over in fall, I’ll buy a Midea Porta Split and install it in the living room. Good tips in general, some summarized from above: Hydrate a lot, even before you are actually thirsty. Stay inside if possible. Keep the added humidity to a minimum. Know what you are trying to do with drinks and showers. Cool drinks and showers offer relief, but can make you heat up after. Hot beverages and showers can make everything feel cooler after and help you sweat. I like both, depending on the situation. Wrap ice packs or similar stuff in a towel and put them under your feet or in your armpits. If possible, lower shutters so the sun cannot heat up the interior and the glass. Maybe install sun protection foil on windows (most are plant-friendly). I’ve also seen others provisionally use those reflecting covers for cars on their windows, or aluminium foil. Make sure that if it’s behind the glass, the heat won’t be trapped and make the glass crack, so preferably attach it on the outside. Sunscreen, wide breathable and covering clothing, sun umbrellas and hats. During fall/winter, maybe during Black Friday sales, get a portable split cooling system. Portables do not need structural changes to the building, which is why they tend to be allowed in rental units as they can be removed without a trace and aren’t in use all year. Shitty landlords might get mad to see it in your window, but in many countries, there already is positive case law about them and the usual AC dismissals don’t apply to them. Set out flat bowls of water in the shadow for wild animals and refill. Consider different ones for different sizes (a flat one with stone pebbles for insects, a relatively flat but water-only one for hedgehogs etc., one bird bath…). Use cool tiles and cooling mats for pets. Keep an eye out for baby birds who flee their overheated nests too early; maybe you can save some of them. Especially bitdd who live in attics and roofs are dying right now (swifts etc.) If possible and you can plan the shipment, avoid deliveries. Keep water around for delivery personnel. Eat smaller snacks and portions spread out throughout the day instead of big meals so your body doesn’t heat up as much during digestion. Leave the windows open all day. Let the sun heat up your interior, if possible; try at least covering windows with blankets if there are no shutters. Set out water for animals where it heats up drastically, or in a beverage where they might become trapped and drown. Walk your dog when the ground is heated up - asphalt burns happen quickly past 25 degrees Celsius. Fall for scalpers, scammers and increased prices for ACs and fans who are using the current demand and availability issues for profit. The Porta Split I mean to get can be bought for 550-750 Euro under normal circumstances, now during the heat wave, prices have exploded to over 1.4k. Only buy that if it is an emergency. Think fans or ACs can make you sick. This is a widely held belief especially in older generations in Germany at least, together with the myth that any wind can cause a cold and stiff neck. It is bullshit. It’s a big reason why this country is not prepared for this heat and there’s a 20% adoption rate for ACs here. Think you need to keep the fan off or not buy one at all because of the electricity bill. The increase is lower for newer models and for the few days you need to use it (more) (for now). You are also not meaningfully contributing to climate change with this increased energy use. Like, come on, they wanna build entire data centers eating away gigawatts, your heat protection is not the issue here. Still, all of these tend to be hyperindividualistic solutions, just like when Covid happened, and we need more widespread, structural solutions. Not everyone can stay home; many people still have to work and commute. You might tell people to hydrate as much as possible, but their work doesn’t offer free (or extra) water to them, and many places like restaurants and cafés still don’t. We tell people to invest in ACs and fans, but landlords and workplaces don’t want to install any, forbid the use, or don’t cover the price of these things. It’s like heat management is still an incredibly personal thing where everyone has to feel like they are fending for themselves, investing their own money into stockpiling resources and tech, and utilizing the privilege to avoid a lot of the heat by working from home/working inside, taking time off, calling in sick and so on. More collective heat management can look like: Free water in establishments everywhere, and drinking fountains spread throughout cities, with signs pointing to the next one. Designating libraries, community centers, schools, transit hubs and big shops like huge supermarkets as cooling centers during heat waves. Keeping trees, bushes, grass etc. intact and adding more. They help keep cities cooler, together with reflective roofs and lighter pavements. Legally mandating landlords to install ACs in rental units, especially ones directly below the roof (attic/loft/penthouse apartments), and cover specific windows in protective foil or external shutters. Requiring new(er) buildings to have specific insulation that helps in summer as well as winter, ventilation strategies, ACs, etc. and updating building codes so new housing remains habitable during prolonged heat waves, even without continuous air conditioning. More shaded areas in crowded places, waiting spots (public transportation), shaded pathways between major destinations. Rollout of functioning and resilient AC in all public transportation, hospitals, schools, universities, elderly homes etc. Extending opening hours into the early morning and late evening during extreme heat, with closure inbetween (or at the bare minimum, siestas). Temperature thresholds that trigger additional protections or suspension of certain work or studies. Preparing railroads, normal roads and other parts of the public from the intense heat effects or making them more heat resistant; otherwise you risk bent rails, melting bitumen etc. Distributing fans or subsidizing cooling equipment where appropriate. Strengthening electrical grids to cope with increased cooling demand, subsidizing electricity costs during declared heat emergencies, expanding renewable generation to reduce the emissions associated with increased cooling needs. And likely more I forgot. Yes, people will cry that this costs soooo much money. But remember that we have no problem investing that money into wars, AI, data centers, expensive proprietary software licenses, politicians’ money schemes and making billionaires richer. Landlords need to invest the rent into the property instead of enriching themselves and getting other people to pay off their mortgage. These aren’t one-time events, it will continue to get worse. Earlier in the year, longer, higher. Many people and animals will die. Everyone has to start preparing and learning from it now, and stop buying into the bullshit that “it was hot when I was a child too, we are just complaining more!!1!”. Your government is failing you if they are not acting now, and it is intentional, as the heat affects vulnerable and powerless groups the most. Make sure you check on old, sick, disabled people and people you know who take medication that makes them more vulnerable to the sun and/or heat. For example, diuretics, beta blockers, anticholinergics, and some antidepressants and stimulants. Reply via email Published 27 Jun, 2026 Hydrate a lot, even before you are actually thirsty. Stay inside if possible. Keep the added humidity to a minimum. Know what you are trying to do with drinks and showers. Cool drinks and showers offer relief, but can make you heat up after. Hot beverages and showers can make everything feel cooler after and help you sweat. I like both, depending on the situation. Wrap ice packs or similar stuff in a towel and put them under your feet or in your armpits. If possible, lower shutters so the sun cannot heat up the interior and the glass. Maybe install sun protection foil on windows (most are plant-friendly). I’ve also seen others provisionally use those reflecting covers for cars on their windows, or aluminium foil. Make sure that if it’s behind the glass, the heat won’t be trapped and make the glass crack, so preferably attach it on the outside. Sunscreen, wide breathable and covering clothing, sun umbrellas and hats. During fall/winter, maybe during Black Friday sales, get a portable split cooling system. Portables do not need structural changes to the building, which is why they tend to be allowed in rental units as they can be removed without a trace and aren’t in use all year. Shitty landlords might get mad to see it in your window, but in many countries, there already is positive case law about them and the usual AC dismissals don’t apply to them. Set out flat bowls of water in the shadow for wild animals and refill. Consider different ones for different sizes (a flat one with stone pebbles for insects, a relatively flat but water-only one for hedgehogs etc., one bird bath…). Use cool tiles and cooling mats for pets. Keep an eye out for baby birds who flee their overheated nests too early; maybe you can save some of them. Especially bitdd who live in attics and roofs are dying right now (swifts etc.) If possible and you can plan the shipment, avoid deliveries. Keep water around for delivery personnel. Eat smaller snacks and portions spread out throughout the day instead of big meals so your body doesn’t heat up as much during digestion. Leave the windows open all day. Let the sun heat up your interior, if possible; try at least covering windows with blankets if there are no shutters. Set out water for animals where it heats up drastically, or in a beverage where they might become trapped and drown. Walk your dog when the ground is heated up - asphalt burns happen quickly past 25 degrees Celsius. Fall for scalpers, scammers and increased prices for ACs and fans who are using the current demand and availability issues for profit. The Porta Split I mean to get can be bought for 550-750 Euro under normal circumstances, now during the heat wave, prices have exploded to over 1.4k. Only buy that if it is an emergency. Think fans or ACs can make you sick. This is a widely held belief especially in older generations in Germany at least, together with the myth that any wind can cause a cold and stiff neck. It is bullshit. It’s a big reason why this country is not prepared for this heat and there’s a 20% adoption rate for ACs here. Think you need to keep the fan off or not buy one at all because of the electricity bill. The increase is lower for newer models and for the few days you need to use it (more) (for now). You are also not meaningfully contributing to climate change with this increased energy use. Like, come on, they wanna build entire data centers eating away gigawatts, your heat protection is not the issue here. Free water in establishments everywhere, and drinking fountains spread throughout cities, with signs pointing to the next one. Designating libraries, community centers, schools, transit hubs and big shops like huge supermarkets as cooling centers during heat waves. Keeping trees, bushes, grass etc. intact and adding more. They help keep cities cooler, together with reflective roofs and lighter pavements. Legally mandating landlords to install ACs in rental units, especially ones directly below the roof (attic/loft/penthouse apartments), and cover specific windows in protective foil or external shutters. Requiring new(er) buildings to have specific insulation that helps in summer as well as winter, ventilation strategies, ACs, etc. and updating building codes so new housing remains habitable during prolonged heat waves, even without continuous air conditioning. More shaded areas in crowded places, waiting spots (public transportation), shaded pathways between major destinations. Rollout of functioning and resilient AC in all public transportation, hospitals, schools, universities, elderly homes etc. Extending opening hours into the early morning and late evening during extreme heat, with closure inbetween (or at the bare minimum, siestas). Temperature thresholds that trigger additional protections or suspension of certain work or studies. Preparing railroads, normal roads and other parts of the public from the intense heat effects or making them more heat resistant; otherwise you risk bent rails, melting bitumen etc. Distributing fans or subsidizing cooling equipment where appropriate. Strengthening electrical grids to cope with increased cooling demand, subsidizing electricity costs during declared heat emergencies, expanding renewable generation to reduce the emissions associated with increased cooling needs.

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ava's blog 3 weeks ago

art, hunting for beetles & more

I'm in need for some lighthearted stuff. I finally finished a painting from a few months ago, and did a quick gouache doodle in my notebook using the Google captcha look (but slightly wrong). Gonna redo that on proper paper some time with taping off sections, nicer letters and the correct amount of squares; but I think that is so fun, I can think of so many things to draw in this design. I really wanna make (and post) more art. Over the weekend, we hosted friends for some MtG. Baked a cake, bought some snacks, and made a huge portion of spaghetti. Look at his cool shirt: and my other friend's cool phone case: Generally, MtG is the best thing that has ever happened to my social life. I've never had a hobby where I just clicked with so many people I met through it. Seems to attract my kind. Everything else was hit or miss, or I often stood out because of some identity aspect or upbringing. And it makes socializing so much easier! No awkward silences, you can all just focus on the game, and have chitchat on the side, if wanted, not forced. You never have to ask yourself " Shit, if I ask them to hang out, what will we do? What do they like? ". You can just invite them to play and go from there, finding other shared interests. If you wanna go meet new people, you can just go to an LGS. You don't first have to build rapport to do some activity with someone, like it would otherwise be; you can just go to the store and sit at a table. Nothing has to grow into a proper friendship. Sometimes it's just enough to talk to someone for a couple hours for one evening and then never again. That still combats loneliness and social anxiety. And when you invite people over and host at your place, it feels so good to feed them and make them have a good time, and is a great excuse to keep your space extra tidy. I've lived in my current area since 2019, and I was just never able to build a network locally. Covid happened, and all kinds of events or Bumble BFF meets just left me empty. All I had later was my wife (who has been living here for 3 years now) and her friends (who live very far away), and we can only visit each other sparingly. So it's been nice how we have made more of an effort to find people here by visiting multiple LGS and my wife starting to participate in a weekly tabletop event. It feels like these are one of the only third spaces left. Which can be unfortunate depending on how expensive the game is and if there are any participation fees or table renting fees, so it is not ideal; but it oftentimes is cheaper and more fun than staying for hours at a cafe and ending up having talked to no one. :) On another note, I spent time trying to spot some specimens of my favorite beetle, the European stag beetle . I have seen them in my area before (and always report sightings), and it is just the right time of the year. Here's an older gif of one of my interactions last year (I was trying to get him off the street, and he was intimidating me): I set out to find a bigger one, with more impressive mandibles, and maybe even spot an oak tree with multiple on it. :) They love oak trees. I was already lucky on the first area I picked; the stag unfortunately wasn't. Just about 15 seconds earlier, a bike that passed me had run it over partially. I could see at the scene that it was fresh. Crushed a few legs and broke a mandible off. I flipped him and sat him into the bushes away from the path, but he kept flipping and squirming, unable to function. No hope for that guy. I took the mandible with me. It's now on my shelf. I am very very sad that I wasn't there even half a minute earlier to save him. They are an endangered species and need to be protected (which is why you should report their sightings, alive or dead). It's very hard for them to survive because they are so huge and therefore easy prey, and they lay their eggs very deep into the ground, buried below dead trees, preferably oak trees that have a fungal infestation. After hatching, their larvae can take 3-5, sometimes up to 8 years of development in the ground before emerging and trying to find a mate. In general, while my area is lucky to have so many stags that you can find some if you go looking, the food situation doesn't seem to be optimal for them. The better the food, the bigger their general body and especially their mandibles, so starvation can actually cause the males to remain very small with tiny mandibles ("Hungermännchen" in German). I have seen some impressive sizes online. Ours are only okay-ish in size. I'll keep looking in other areas over the next few weeks :) Reply via email Published 23 Jun, 2026

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ava's blog 3 weeks ago

what i read this week - week 25 2026

As usual - not counting the personal blogs I read :) I think after this one, I am fucking tired about hearing of digital sovereignty, and will stop reading about it for a while. Leak Exposes Members of Peter Thiel’s Secretive ‘Dialog’ Society ( Archive ) - the big news story going around. From Vigilance to Omnibus: Is the CSDDD Heading Down the Same Path as France’s Due Diligence Law? - about the developments of corporate due diligence laws. EU turns to US-powered AI to rank job candidates - this one deeply disappointed me. They're using the Job Matching Application by Anthropic. The system will be used to identify, score, and rank candidates across EU recruitment procedures. The article says that candidates will be informed via an AI disclaimer and will have the right to request human intervention and challenge any decision before interviews take place. I have my doubts. This is killing my desire for these positions... AI Didn’t Kill Design, It Exposed It - interesting view written by a designer. It calls out that design in tech is so often funded by companies and advancing business goals, not just being for the people, so AI doing that now at an incredible speed to not allow questioning the design is the logical next step. Without Open-Source Hardware, There Is No EU Tech Sovereignty - brings into focus that it also needs open source hardware, not just software, in tech sovereignty. This is a gap many aren't aware of. Building Trust Infrastructure for Agentic AI - about how open isn't always good or safe, and in terms of agents and their skills, can be actively harmful. Quote: " What’s missing, therefore, is trust infrastructure: boring, ordinary, transparent, effective institutions that test and validate trust on behalf of people, and create a world where normal users of agents don’t have to think or worry about it, and can take advantage of the upsides of an ecosystem with a baseline of protection from the concomitant risks. " AI, Privacy, and the Hidden Architecture of Harm from Inference - it's one thing to protect personal data that is fixed information that is already out there; it's another to legislate for inference. You can access, correct, or delete personal data, but a model can generate new one (like guessing correct data you never directly shared) that users cannot reasonably foresee or control. Legislation should expand the definitions to include inferred information and probabilistic attributes, and operate on a capability basis when it comes to governance. D.O.J. Seeks to Halt Air Pollution Lawsuit Against xAI Data Center Digitale Souveränität: Wir brauchen keinen Euro-Nationalismus ( Archive ) - critical piece about the use of 'Euro' in the projects and efforts for digital sovereignty, and that the word 'sovereignty' can also be co-opted by nationalists. The report about digital sovereignty for the EU Parliament was written by Sarah Knafo, who is a member of the far right party Reconquête in France. We don't just need sovereignity, we need commons, democracy, and solidarity. Digitale Souveränität in Scheibc­hen - summary and contextualization of the German-French agreements on digital sovereignty. Die Waffen des Silicon Valley - Judgment of Alex Karp's Manifesto, which is an attempt to further cement perpetual fear and warmongering as a business venture for tech. „Die Republik“ setzt sich gegen Palantir durch - Swiss magazine winning court case against Palantir. KI-Gesetz: vereinfachte Vorschriften und Verbot von „Nudifier-Apps“ - press release about the acceptance of the AI omnibus and summary of the changes, most notably the ban on nudifier apps :) and adjusted deadlines for compliance :( Deutsche Cloud: 4 von 10 Unternehmen würden Abstriche in Kauf nehmen - Press release by Bitkom about their Cloud Report 2026, showing some stats about how the industry feels about the reliance on US tech. A Simple Guide to Privacy Signals - Guide on privacy signals by the EDRi. Explains to laypeople everything to know about cookies and new steps taken to simplify consent without cookie banners. Data bought, rights ignored: European intelligence services' use of commercially sourced data (the PDF) - European governments increasingly buy personal data via databrokers that has been generated via social media apps and other platforms. National legal frameworks don't seem to yet adequately regulate the acquisition and use of this data (ADINT/CSINT/other terms etc.), since it's exchanging data with the private sector, plus this may be used to circumvent data minimization requirements. Interface (the organization) advocates for new warrant requirements to get this kind of data, the creation of a legal basis for when intelligence agencies access and use data stored on the servers of private sector entities (= mediated data use), logs for audits and awareness of oversight bodies of this emerging practice. Pages 32, 39, 42 have the main important questions (chapterwise) if you are pressed for time. I found it hard to get through, very complicated at times. Working Paper on Extended Reality - paper on extended reality (umbrella term for virtual/augmented reality) and its privacy risks. In total, that is roughly ~ 180 pages. I will likely soon skip some weeks of this format soon; thinking of giving myself a break from most of the stuff I am doing for the entirety of July :) no GDPRhub summaries, no reading of my RSS feed or papers or magazines (and maybe even books), no blog posts, etc. I've been kinda doing way too much, and I need to prioritize doing nothing (except some studying) for a while, and returning refreshed. Reply via email Published 20 Jun, 2026 Leak Exposes Members of Peter Thiel’s Secretive ‘Dialog’ Society ( Archive ) - the big news story going around. From Vigilance to Omnibus: Is the CSDDD Heading Down the Same Path as France’s Due Diligence Law? - about the developments of corporate due diligence laws. EU turns to US-powered AI to rank job candidates - this one deeply disappointed me. They're using the Job Matching Application by Anthropic. The system will be used to identify, score, and rank candidates across EU recruitment procedures. The article says that candidates will be informed via an AI disclaimer and will have the right to request human intervention and challenge any decision before interviews take place. I have my doubts. This is killing my desire for these positions... AI Didn’t Kill Design, It Exposed It - interesting view written by a designer. It calls out that design in tech is so often funded by companies and advancing business goals, not just being for the people, so AI doing that now at an incredible speed to not allow questioning the design is the logical next step. Without Open-Source Hardware, There Is No EU Tech Sovereignty - brings into focus that it also needs open source hardware, not just software, in tech sovereignty. This is a gap many aren't aware of. Building Trust Infrastructure for Agentic AI - about how open isn't always good or safe, and in terms of agents and their skills, can be actively harmful. Quote: " What’s missing, therefore, is trust infrastructure: boring, ordinary, transparent, effective institutions that test and validate trust on behalf of people, and create a world where normal users of agents don’t have to think or worry about it, and can take advantage of the upsides of an ecosystem with a baseline of protection from the concomitant risks. " AI, Privacy, and the Hidden Architecture of Harm from Inference - it's one thing to protect personal data that is fixed information that is already out there; it's another to legislate for inference. You can access, correct, or delete personal data, but a model can generate new one (like guessing correct data you never directly shared) that users cannot reasonably foresee or control. Legislation should expand the definitions to include inferred information and probabilistic attributes, and operate on a capability basis when it comes to governance. D.O.J. Seeks to Halt Air Pollution Lawsuit Against xAI Data Center Digitale Souveränität: Wir brauchen keinen Euro-Nationalismus ( Archive ) - critical piece about the use of 'Euro' in the projects and efforts for digital sovereignty, and that the word 'sovereignty' can also be co-opted by nationalists. The report about digital sovereignty for the EU Parliament was written by Sarah Knafo, who is a member of the far right party Reconquête in France. We don't just need sovereignity, we need commons, democracy, and solidarity. Digitale Souveränität in Scheibc­hen - summary and contextualization of the German-French agreements on digital sovereignty. Die Waffen des Silicon Valley - Judgment of Alex Karp's Manifesto, which is an attempt to further cement perpetual fear and warmongering as a business venture for tech. „Die Republik“ setzt sich gegen Palantir durch - Swiss magazine winning court case against Palantir. KI-Gesetz: vereinfachte Vorschriften und Verbot von „Nudifier-Apps“ - press release about the acceptance of the AI omnibus and summary of the changes, most notably the ban on nudifier apps :) and adjusted deadlines for compliance :( Deutsche Cloud: 4 von 10 Unternehmen würden Abstriche in Kauf nehmen - Press release by Bitkom about their Cloud Report 2026, showing some stats about how the industry feels about the reliance on US tech. A Simple Guide to Privacy Signals - Guide on privacy signals by the EDRi. Explains to laypeople everything to know about cookies and new steps taken to simplify consent without cookie banners. Data bought, rights ignored: European intelligence services' use of commercially sourced data (the PDF) - European governments increasingly buy personal data via databrokers that has been generated via social media apps and other platforms. National legal frameworks don't seem to yet adequately regulate the acquisition and use of this data (ADINT/CSINT/other terms etc.), since it's exchanging data with the private sector, plus this may be used to circumvent data minimization requirements. Interface (the organization) advocates for new warrant requirements to get this kind of data, the creation of a legal basis for when intelligence agencies access and use data stored on the servers of private sector entities (= mediated data use), logs for audits and awareness of oversight bodies of this emerging practice. Pages 32, 39, 42 have the main important questions (chapterwise) if you are pressed for time. I found it hard to get through, very complicated at times. Working Paper on Extended Reality - paper on extended reality (umbrella term for virtual/augmented reality) and its privacy risks. This one for noyb.

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ava's blog 3 weeks ago

favorite re:publica 26 talks - part 1

Sadly couldn't attend re:publica 26, but the talks have been recorded and uploaded on YouTube. If you don't know: It's a conference in Germany with workshops and talks that deal with internet topics, specifically digital rights, media culture, online presences like blogs or social media, and our general information society. So I watched many of the uploaded talks by now, and here is part 1 of my favorites! Initially, I wanted to do one post, but it's getting way too much/long, and I'm dragging my feet watching the rest I planned to. Most of these talks are in German, some are in English, but I guess you can also use YT's auto dub feature (which I find horrible, but has become a bit better lately, as far as I can tell from when it was suddenly turned on). Let's start! OpenClaw - Anatomy of the Wave - great talk about AI agents, how to set one up, and interesting use cases. Kinda sold me on at least going through the setup process, especially as one reader once inspired me to give open source local models a try. Interesting tidbits: The idea of letting an employee close to retirement use an agent so it will save all the knowledge that will otherwise be lost or won't be covered in onboarding of a replacement; anti-distill tech, that masks your skills and outputs so that models cannot be trained to replace you; the theory that as more and more people will talk with AI, we will go back to a predominately oral culture, worse grammar and writing (as AI will understand anyway, even with mistakes), and potentially affecting how we talk to each other; the appeal to build your own agent before the big players in the AI space barter over you and your data, and so that you are independent from platform capitalism. On Counter-Power (with Arne Semsrott) - absolutely banger talk, my favorite. I love Arne, I also bought his latest book. Interesting tidbits: A lot of INSA studies about public opinion/voting that show off the AfD's success in Germany are paid for by BILD and NIUS, and the INSA CEO has a past of supporting the AfD and other far-right and conservative groups; the %s of AfD in those polls looks scary, but when compared to the last election and how many groups did vote for a Bürokratieabbau for power and money, but the most vulnerable ( Bürgergeld/Grundsicherung , Immigration), get more and more of it; political and civic participation needs to be fun and enjoyable! Young, blonde, right-wing... & AI-generated is a talk about how many prominent rightwing personalities online (that rightwing politicians even interact with and platform on their account) are AI-generated, especially young, blonde white women. AI makes it easier to produce more polished content; even when we consider it slop, it is polished in a specific way that resembles high quality marketing stuff that AI is trained on. That makes it easier for rightwingers to churn out hard-hitting images and content of their fabricated reality that their audience laps up, and they especially focus on decline porn , which generates attention, money and power through the fantasy that we are close to a complete collapse etc. Ordinary media and their contribution to the comeback of fascism talks about how false neutrality in the biggest reputable/respectable news media has contributed to the rise of fascism. Everything is "debatable" or "controversial", "critics say" what they don't directly want to say, and therefore outsource Machtkritik onto third parties. One great example: NYT wrote "Critics complain that Italy's Government is interfering in the arts" but it actually was, as was explained in the text, so the title should have just said Italy's government is interfering in the arts. This trick gets used like a shield to blame a view on critics instead of standing by what they write. Tagesschau platforms BILD and NIUS like they are respectable platforms just to play a "both sides equally" game, false dichotomies get created for outrage and clicks when there is a more nuanced view they do not offer because it would actually involve journalistic work of contextualizing what politicians say with facts. Trumps unhinged tweets get sanitized, normalized and softened by news by breaking them down into "giving Iran more time to open the Strait" as if it was a respectable position. The Authoritarian Stack with Francesca Bria. She's showing stuff from the Authoritarian Stack and Euro Stack websites, explaining how much tech oligarchs are building and controlling the essential systems of our modern society; social media, office software, chips, internet, raw materials etc. while they are building a post-democratic world. They embed themselves into states and governments through procurement, venture capital, and personnel pipelines; supply chains and dependencies are weaponized, bottlenecks become goldmines (land, power, chips, mines, data centers) and political alignment with Washington becomes a requirement to access advanced compute. Interesting tidbits: Ideology steers the Venture Capital, which funds the companies, which send people off into government positions (State Capture) which leads to Regulation/Deregulation in their favor, and they get Gov Contracts which lets them build Infrastructure. We all pay for it via taxes, because those get invested when government buys their products (esp around immigration control, war, etc.); Marc Andreessen spent more on the election than Soros and Musk; General Matter reactors are the first privately owned uranium enrichment plant in America, Thiel sits on the board, 900 million contract; every year over 2 trillion euros of public EU procurement go to fund our dependency. Digital arms race (with Michael Kolain) covered whether we are in a digital arms race, the issues in it, and how we might get out. Old terms and concepts like disarmament don't work anymore, as these AI systems are dual use; spending in AI is also investing into AI warfare because of this. This means at some point, since systems and countries can no longer be disarmed, there is always the threat of attack, a silent war that never ends, a hyperwar that is unparalleled in speed and scale. Mirjam Walser – Unheard of! AI, animals, and the question of whose interests count is a great presentation on the animal rights aspects of it all. AI is promised to increase animal welfare, but it is a ruse of the big players in animal agriculture to optimize productivity and profitability. The goal is completely autonomous mass killing in giant meat plants, no humans needed. Interesting to note: Anthropic is, so far, the only company whose guidance includes respecting animals and all sentient beings. Trust in the AI Era: How does digital information remain credible? says that we are going through a paradigm shift in which we do not need to ask whether a picture is real, but instead asking ourselves where it comes from, who made it and what got changed. Also, interesting facts around content credentials; some cameras in Samsung and Pixel phones, as well as some Lyca model, cryptographically sign an image during the shot so it is known it was actually physically taken ("real"). Different approaches taken/different orgs around it are C2PA, CAI, CR. There are different approaches to both integrity and identity layers of this confirmation. Manipulation will be a daily thing, but we need visible signs and control so we can choose how to engage with it. High time for sexual media literacy covers digital sexuality (Digisexualität, Mediensexualität) for everyone, but especially teens. It makes clear that it's not only always about porn or porn websites; people also use the internet for sexual education, flirting and sexting with each other (or with bots) over social media platforms and games, exploring sexuality and finding validation from other sexual minorities, finding each other to have sex in real life, seeing thirst traps on the feed, etc. and unfortunately, they also get sexually harassed, groomed, deepfaked, and there is (new term for me!) Sharegewalt ('share violence', non-consensual sharing of nudes to other parties). Nowadays, children come into contact with sexual media at 11 years old on average; analog consensual sexual experiences tend to happen between 14-19, where most people report having their first intercourse at 19. This used to be earlier for past generations. Digital sex becomes a practice range for analog sex nowadays, which makes sense, as digital no's are easier than real life no's, and digital experiences can be paused or stopped easily. The big point is: It is important for teens to be able to find ways to cope with their changing, sexualized bodies, to experience themselves as a sexual being and find out what they like, see their effect on others, test their desires and how it is to generate sexual attention, and find out where they are on the gender binary (or outside of it). It's especially important for queer people, disabled people, abused people, socially anxious people or people who are surveilled a lot at home. We should not think of teens as passive victims to sexual content, but as consumers, and continue improvements in sex education, and expand it to teaching media competence around porn and sexting (how to keep yourself safe, how to draw boundaries, detect cybergrooming, knowing you have legal rights etc.). Classism in Digital Spaces - I really struggled not to cry watching this one because it hits close to home. You're not only confronted with different economic realities offline, but also online, where everyone shares their highlight reel and makes their life look more luxurious. It can quickly feel like you're the only one struggling, or the only one with an upbringing in poverty. As a poor person, you are shamed, and people who are more well-off than you refuse to believe your stories, and then when they feel guilty for earning more, they project that onto you, and shame you for making them feel bad. They act like having money is so hard and a burden that was placed on them, or as if they should not pay more of a collective bill if they also earn more. It is also staggering just how many people do poverty cosplay both online and in real life; their family has been comfortably middle class all their life, yet they somehow co-opt poverty discourse as if it affected them. I get mad when I interact with someone in that way and then later find out their family has multiple houses, for example. People like that don't know how good they have it; despite Germany being one of the richest countries, every fourth child is growing up in poverty by now. So many of my friends struggle to find jobs, and also rely on Bürgergeld/Grundsicherung , and for them it's like being in an abusive relationship. This huge, powerful entity gives you a very limited amount of money while degrading you, insulting you, and making you jump through hoops trying to prove you are not guilty of something , and there is nothing you can do about it. You can't evade it, or can't break out of it, you can't defend yourself. You are forced to endure it until you can find a job, which could be next week or in 5 years. You're living under constant threat of losing everything, and are expected not to be a fucking nervous wreck during it? Next time you read about how a high percentage of people getting benefits isn't looking for a job, remember that this includes minors, people close to retirement who don't get hired due to their age, disabled people, people doing care work for the children and elderly in their family, people who already work a low-income job and get the benefits as supplement, and more. Defeating digital corporations with class action lawsuits - collective legal action like that is new in the EU (since 2020), and this video explains the different kind of options and what they are used for. I will not bore you with legal details, but it was very enlightening for me! Includes real life example of class actions against X, TikTok, Amazon and more. Sorry, not sorry – The Art of (Not) Apologizing in Public - very helpful for me as a person who struggles to understand apologies and what makes a good one, and why social media apologies are the way they are. This may sound odd, but for most of my life so far, I just never understood what was expected of me when I was made to apologize, and what it is for. I often don't regret any behavior I know I am supposed to apologize for, and in many contexts while growing up, just did it because I knew it was the "right" thing to do, without actually feeling remorseful or wrong about what I did (nowadays, I apologize when I feel genuinely remorseful). Apologies by others unfortunately give me absolutely nothing and don't resolve anything for me emotionally (the result of growing up with people who apologized to me doing the thing they apologized for again and again, or abusers not apologizing to me ever, and also me being forced to apologize when I didn't want to, I guess, which made it all feel like a fake performance and scam), so I have a very limited view of what others actually feel about it. I appreciate this deep dive into what an apology is, what it is good for, and why some people apologize while others don't. The Future of Human-Machine Relationships was cool to watch because it's led by an actual researcher summarizing her studies on how humans interact with AI, what it means to them, what influences it, and the range of answers to some of the research questions. She makes clear that AI should be a bridge into the real world, not a wall, and not an escape. Related talk: When AI simulates consciousness , about how pareidolia and the frictionless, sycophantic design of the big GenAI aids the humanization of them. LLMs as they are publicly available right now are a mass social experiment. ... but there are many, many, many, maaaaany more videos and talks that happened, so feel free to check out the rest and see if you find anything you like! Part II hopefully coming soon. Reply via email Published 19 Jun, 2026 OpenClaw - Anatomy of the Wave - great talk about AI agents, how to set one up, and interesting use cases. Kinda sold me on at least going through the setup process, especially as one reader once inspired me to give open source local models a try. Interesting tidbits: The idea of letting an employee close to retirement use an agent so it will save all the knowledge that will otherwise be lost or won't be covered in onboarding of a replacement; anti-distill tech, that masks your skills and outputs so that models cannot be trained to replace you; the theory that as more and more people will talk with AI, we will go back to a predominately oral culture, worse grammar and writing (as AI will understand anyway, even with mistakes), and potentially affecting how we talk to each other; the appeal to build your own agent before the big players in the AI space barter over you and your data, and so that you are independent from platform capitalism. On Counter-Power (with Arne Semsrott) - absolutely banger talk, my favorite. I love Arne, I also bought his latest book. Interesting tidbits: A lot of INSA studies about public opinion/voting that show off the AfD's success in Germany are paid for by BILD and NIUS, and the INSA CEO has a past of supporting the AfD and other far-right and conservative groups; the %s of AfD in those polls looks scary, but when compared to the last election and how many groups did vote for a Bürokratieabbau for power and money, but the most vulnerable ( Bürgergeld/Grundsicherung , Immigration), get more and more of it; political and civic participation needs to be fun and enjoyable! Young, blonde, right-wing... & AI-generated is a talk about how many prominent rightwing personalities online (that rightwing politicians even interact with and platform on their account) are AI-generated, especially young, blonde white women. AI makes it easier to produce more polished content; even when we consider it slop, it is polished in a specific way that resembles high quality marketing stuff that AI is trained on. That makes it easier for rightwingers to churn out hard-hitting images and content of their fabricated reality that their audience laps up, and they especially focus on decline porn , which generates attention, money and power through the fantasy that we are close to a complete collapse etc. Ordinary media and their contribution to the comeback of fascism talks about how false neutrality in the biggest reputable/respectable news media has contributed to the rise of fascism. Everything is "debatable" or "controversial", "critics say" what they don't directly want to say, and therefore outsource Machtkritik onto third parties. One great example: NYT wrote "Critics complain that Italy's Government is interfering in the arts" but it actually was, as was explained in the text, so the title should have just said Italy's government is interfering in the arts. This trick gets used like a shield to blame a view on critics instead of standing by what they write. Tagesschau platforms BILD and NIUS like they are respectable platforms just to play a "both sides equally" game, false dichotomies get created for outrage and clicks when there is a more nuanced view they do not offer because it would actually involve journalistic work of contextualizing what politicians say with facts. Trumps unhinged tweets get sanitized, normalized and softened by news by breaking them down into "giving Iran more time to open the Strait" as if it was a respectable position. The Authoritarian Stack with Francesca Bria. She's showing stuff from the Authoritarian Stack and Euro Stack websites, explaining how much tech oligarchs are building and controlling the essential systems of our modern society; social media, office software, chips, internet, raw materials etc. while they are building a post-democratic world. They embed themselves into states and governments through procurement, venture capital, and personnel pipelines; supply chains and dependencies are weaponized, bottlenecks become goldmines (land, power, chips, mines, data centers) and political alignment with Washington becomes a requirement to access advanced compute. Interesting tidbits: Ideology steers the Venture Capital, which funds the companies, which send people off into government positions (State Capture) which leads to Regulation/Deregulation in their favor, and they get Gov Contracts which lets them build Infrastructure. We all pay for it via taxes, because those get invested when government buys their products (esp around immigration control, war, etc.); Marc Andreessen spent more on the election than Soros and Musk; General Matter reactors are the first privately owned uranium enrichment plant in America, Thiel sits on the board, 900 million contract; every year over 2 trillion euros of public EU procurement go to fund our dependency. Digital arms race (with Michael Kolain) covered whether we are in a digital arms race, the issues in it, and how we might get out. Old terms and concepts like disarmament don't work anymore, as these AI systems are dual use; spending in AI is also investing into AI warfare because of this. This means at some point, since systems and countries can no longer be disarmed, there is always the threat of attack, a silent war that never ends, a hyperwar that is unparalleled in speed and scale. Mirjam Walser – Unheard of! AI, animals, and the question of whose interests count is a great presentation on the animal rights aspects of it all. AI is promised to increase animal welfare, but it is a ruse of the big players in animal agriculture to optimize productivity and profitability. The goal is completely autonomous mass killing in giant meat plants, no humans needed. Interesting to note: Anthropic is, so far, the only company whose guidance includes respecting animals and all sentient beings. Trust in the AI Era: How does digital information remain credible? says that we are going through a paradigm shift in which we do not need to ask whether a picture is real, but instead asking ourselves where it comes from, who made it and what got changed. Also, interesting facts around content credentials; some cameras in Samsung and Pixel phones, as well as some Lyca model, cryptographically sign an image during the shot so it is known it was actually physically taken ("real"). Different approaches taken/different orgs around it are C2PA, CAI, CR. There are different approaches to both integrity and identity layers of this confirmation. Manipulation will be a daily thing, but we need visible signs and control so we can choose how to engage with it. High time for sexual media literacy covers digital sexuality (Digisexualität, Mediensexualität) for everyone, but especially teens. It makes clear that it's not only always about porn or porn websites; people also use the internet for sexual education, flirting and sexting with each other (or with bots) over social media platforms and games, exploring sexuality and finding validation from other sexual minorities, finding each other to have sex in real life, seeing thirst traps on the feed, etc. and unfortunately, they also get sexually harassed, groomed, deepfaked, and there is (new term for me!) Sharegewalt ('share violence', non-consensual sharing of nudes to other parties). Nowadays, children come into contact with sexual media at 11 years old on average; analog consensual sexual experiences tend to happen between 14-19, where most people report having their first intercourse at 19. This used to be earlier for past generations. Digital sex becomes a practice range for analog sex nowadays, which makes sense, as digital no's are easier than real life no's, and digital experiences can be paused or stopped easily. The big point is: It is important for teens to be able to find ways to cope with their changing, sexualized bodies, to experience themselves as a sexual being and find out what they like, see their effect on others, test their desires and how it is to generate sexual attention, and find out where they are on the gender binary (or outside of it). It's especially important for queer people, disabled people, abused people, socially anxious people or people who are surveilled a lot at home. We should not think of teens as passive victims to sexual content, but as consumers, and continue improvements in sex education, and expand it to teaching media competence around porn and sexting (how to keep yourself safe, how to draw boundaries, detect cybergrooming, knowing you have legal rights etc.). Classism in Digital Spaces - I really struggled not to cry watching this one because it hits close to home. You're not only confronted with different economic realities offline, but also online, where everyone shares their highlight reel and makes their life look more luxurious. It can quickly feel like you're the only one struggling, or the only one with an upbringing in poverty. As a poor person, you are shamed, and people who are more well-off than you refuse to believe your stories, and then when they feel guilty for earning more, they project that onto you, and shame you for making them feel bad. They act like having money is so hard and a burden that was placed on them, or as if they should not pay more of a collective bill if they also earn more. It is also staggering just how many people do poverty cosplay both online and in real life; their family has been comfortably middle class all their life, yet they somehow co-opt poverty discourse as if it affected them. I get mad when I interact with someone in that way and then later find out their family has multiple houses, for example. People like that don't know how good they have it; despite Germany being one of the richest countries, every fourth child is growing up in poverty by now. So many of my friends struggle to find jobs, and also rely on Bürgergeld/Grundsicherung , and for them it's like being in an abusive relationship. This huge, powerful entity gives you a very limited amount of money while degrading you, insulting you, and making you jump through hoops trying to prove you are not guilty of something , and there is nothing you can do about it. You can't evade it, or can't break out of it, you can't defend yourself. You are forced to endure it until you can find a job, which could be next week or in 5 years. You're living under constant threat of losing everything, and are expected not to be a fucking nervous wreck during it? Next time you read about how a high percentage of people getting benefits isn't looking for a job, remember that this includes minors, people close to retirement who don't get hired due to their age, disabled people, people doing care work for the children and elderly in their family, people who already work a low-income job and get the benefits as supplement, and more. Defeating digital corporations with class action lawsuits - collective legal action like that is new in the EU (since 2020), and this video explains the different kind of options and what they are used for. I will not bore you with legal details, but it was very enlightening for me! Includes real life example of class actions against X, TikTok, Amazon and more. Sorry, not sorry – The Art of (Not) Apologizing in Public - very helpful for me as a person who struggles to understand apologies and what makes a good one, and why social media apologies are the way they are. This may sound odd, but for most of my life so far, I just never understood what was expected of me when I was made to apologize, and what it is for. I often don't regret any behavior I know I am supposed to apologize for, and in many contexts while growing up, just did it because I knew it was the "right" thing to do, without actually feeling remorseful or wrong about what I did (nowadays, I apologize when I feel genuinely remorseful). Apologies by others unfortunately give me absolutely nothing and don't resolve anything for me emotionally (the result of growing up with people who apologized to me doing the thing they apologized for again and again, or abusers not apologizing to me ever, and also me being forced to apologize when I didn't want to, I guess, which made it all feel like a fake performance and scam), so I have a very limited view of what others actually feel about it. I appreciate this deep dive into what an apology is, what it is good for, and why some people apologize while others don't. The Future of Human-Machine Relationships was cool to watch because it's led by an actual researcher summarizing her studies on how humans interact with AI, what it means to them, what influences it, and the range of answers to some of the research questions. She makes clear that AI should be a bridge into the real world, not a wall, and not an escape. Related talk: When AI simulates consciousness , about how pareidolia and the frictionless, sycophantic design of the big GenAI aids the humanization of them. LLMs as they are publicly available right now are a mass social experiment.

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ava's blog 4 weeks ago

the girly wellness aesthetic as a white supremacist dog whistle

Since reading Naomi Klein’s Doppelganger and its parts about Covid and fitness influencer culture a while ago (especially the chapter "The Far Right Meets the Far Out"), I cannot help but see that “ Pinterest clean girl fitness and fruit bowl gua sha yoga mat pilates in the forest ” content as covert white supremacy and eugenicist ideals; dog whistles, shared far and wide by people who probably don’t know better and just think it looks good and want to be like that. I cannot quote the entire book and how it adds it together and builds this narrative up, but I especially liked these parts: " There are deep and healthy pleasures to be found in exercise, as there are in other aspects of wellness. For many of the evangelists in these worlds, however, both fitness and diet are intensely value-laden endeavors. Achieving goals means setting rigorous targets and displaying relentless discipline to meet them (a.k.a. "putting in the work"). That's how you reach your idealized body double. Which is all fine if it stays there. But the trouble is, it often doesn't. As Carmen Maria Machado draws out in her doppelganger short story, once the slim, perfect body has been achieved, the less controlled body that once was can persist as an ever-present shadow-self - and this discarded double is deeply loathed. [...] And that is the trouble with this more private kind of doppelganger; when body mania sets in, the fit self may well not be satisfied with crushing its own unfit self; it may look for other targets, its self-hatred seeping out and projecting itself onto other people's less fit, less conventionally able bodies. These kinds of moralistic physical judgments deepened during the pandemic, especially when it became clear that obesity, diabetes, and some forms of addiction increased the risks posed by Covid-19, along-side other factors, including age. Much of the pressure to wear a mask and get vaccinated, meanwhile, was framed as a duty to care for those with greater vulnerabilities. It was then that wellness culture, and its barely submerged hostility toward less conventionally perfect bodies and less "clean" lifestyles, began to bare its teeth. [...] The core Covid-era public health message - that we all needed to undergo some individual inconveniences for the sake of our collective health - enjoyed majority support. Yet it simply could not be reconciled with the wellness industry's own overarching message: that individuals must take charge over their own bodies as their primary sites of influence, control, and competitive edge. And that those who don't exercise that control deserve what they get. Neoliberalism of the body, in distilled form. [...] On the contrary, the lesson they seem to have extracted from the race and class disparities of Covid's early death toll was "This virus is going to kill people who do not look like me.". [...] This willingness to write off huge swaths of humanity that are cast as lesser within supremacist narratives is the strongest glue that binds together the pastel-hued, self-loving world of women's wellness with the fire-breathing, immigrant-bashing world of the Bannon right. [...] These are the histories currently being conjured up in mainstream wellness culture, which has adopted Silicon Valley's notion of self-optimization, itself a by-product of the personal-branding culture that torments so many young people today. Every step counted. Every sleep measured. Every meal "clean". And it is in this context that has prepared the ground for a redux of the 1930s fascist/New Age alliance. The very idea that a human can and should be "optimized" lends itself to a fascistic worldview - because if your food is extra-clean, it can easily mean other people's food is extra-dirty. If you are safe because your immune system is strong, it can flip to man others are unsafe because they are weak. If you are optimized, others are, by definition, suboptimal. Defective. Next door to disposable. " Together with a lot of quotes of fitness trainers, and the fact that the Lululemon founder donated his money to right-wing causes. I used to enjoy looking at this stuff. Since reading, I notice how monotonous the entire aesthetic is, all these social media profiles and suggestions; it’s always white or racially ambiguous people, always women with European beauty standards and highly genderconforming bodies and style. Always the minimalist white beige pastel pink outfits and surroundings, always huge living spaces that look basically unused, always so clean and perfectly styled that it insinuates either lots of available time or paid household help. It goes directly against much of the color celebrated in other cultures, something I already read about in Chromophobia by David Batchelor, in which the author makes compelling arguments that certain groups are obsessed with pure white design because color is seen as corrupting, as racialized and as queer. It’s always with messages about working on yourself that are laid over bodies and food, subtle hints about how you can cure almost anything if you just eat extra clean, avoid evil chemicals, filter everything, drink herbal tea, take supplements and do the sort of exercise regimen that gives you a body like the images. The message is clear: this is what the happy, healthy, perfect body looks like, and everything else is gross, impure, sick, and in need of fixing. This is also presented as almost effortless, and you as the one being out of tune, your body derailed, that you have to get back into its natural equilibrium by detoxification and debloating (rapid weightloss). How it got so out of balance? The poison they now put in your food, the water, the packaging, the air, whatever. There is no space for visibly disabled and chronically ill bodies in this narrative that only permits good health as the default. Acknowledging them would mean admitting that your health is somewhat out of your control beyond the basics, and that it isn’t your juicing and Pilates regimen or your 300$ supplements keeping you together, but luck, genes, not having had an accident, and maybe handwashing. It would be admitting that you could end up sick and hurt despite all the money and time you pour into this, or that your body won’t look like this (for)ever. The other bodies are considered ugly, weak, lazy, a victim of their lifestyle, their greed. It’s simply cooler and seemingly “natural” to throw herbs and greens into a smoothie and pretend that this is your medicine, than the sterile, branded packaging of a syringe or pill, which doesn’t look natural at all. I think especially in America, these content creators love the juxtaposition of the fat Black woman in a food desert with some KFC and burgers, and their white skinny selves in Erewhon. What this content is after is somewhat an image of the Übermensch - the one basically never sick, always strong, beautiful, fertile, white or white-passing, disciplined, hardworking. There’s a reason why so many fitness influencers are conservative or are even MAGA, why so many of them shifted to tradwife content, and how much tradwife content is just like the above but focused on very palatable and stereotypical household chores instead of gym fits, while still featuring almost the same foods and regimens. They post “farmers market haul!” and it shows three impressively tasty looking leafy greens and other vegetables, and you just know that those three items cost what others need for 3 days of food, and can be used for just one meal, or more of you severely undereat. This can’t feed a family, and they couldn’t frolick through the park with their chives and kale in a bag if they really had to transport several cans of food and tetrapaks, too. Wedged in-between are pictures from far-away, expensive travels: impressive beaches, forests, parks, mountains. People, posting in the tone of being just smol little beans !! 🥺, saying: taking a walk through my parents’ backyard! And it’s a whole forest. Generational wealth, but wholesome, ecological, wellness-focused, back-to-the-roots. It’s where cottagecore aesthetic and eco-fascism are able to meet. It’s where criticism about cities, pollution, ecological collapse, loving nature aesthetics can be combined with “retvrn” and “reject modernity, embrace tradition”. All that is why when seeing this type of stuff now, it looks dystopian, it looks like propaganda, highly exclusionary, eugenicist. And I have these feelings despite being the target group and easily passing for one of them as someone who’s white, going to the gym, with a fitting skincare routine, lots of supplements and eating lots of whole foods; the only thing not making me fit in is my chronic illness, and not fully adhering to heterosexual standards of beauty. I know others will think it's "not that deep", but this stuff doesn't exist in a vacuum and frequently gets co-opted in meme warfare and the normalization of a certain standard. It makes me deeply uncomfortable, and thinking of when this really popped off, it paved the way into our current skinny/Ozempic culture and the rise of fascism in many areas. Reply via email Published 17 Jun, 2026

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let's talk about your digital remains!

" When I die, delete my browser history. " ­— Unknown When you die, there are lots of processes in place to deal with your body, your burial, your physical possessions, subscriptions and bank accounts. But what about your digital accounts and possessions? As our lives become more and more digital, taking these into account when tying up the affairs of a dead person is increasingly important. Think about it: This can involve e-mail accounts, social media accounts, messengers, LLM conversations, hard drives, cloud storage, crypto wallets, websites, your digital media licenses, intellectual property you released (like four (F)OSS projects, for example), and more. In a broader sense, you might count browser history and other metadata, too! What's interesting is that so many of these do not fall under the laws you might expect them to, like succession/inheritance law or privacy law. Services that offer you licensed content (like Steam) have made clear in the past that family members are unable to inherit the accounts or licenses, like they would with physical items. In terms of privacy and data protection, the GDPR applies only to living people, so you lose these rights upon death; the task of legislating the rights of the dead in these regards has been given to the Member States, which results in quite a patchwork of rights 1 . This patchwork makes things difficult, because it means your European country can have different laws than another, and companies will have to see how to comply with them all. France, for example, has one of the most developed post-mortem data protection regimes in Europe. The French Data Protection Act (the Loi Informatique et Libertés ) actively considers death in data protection and explicitly allows a person to give instructions regarding the retention, deletion, and communication of their personal data after death and appoint a person responsible for implementing those instructions. It mandates that controllers must follow the deceased's valid instructions, and heirs can obtain access to data necessary to settle the estate, to identify assets and liabilities, or to close user accounts and manage digital affairs. Germany, on the other hand, is pretty much the opposite: Protection of deceased persons' data arises from a combination of post-mortem personality rights (postmortales Persönlichkeitsrecht) concluded from civil law and constitutional law, inheritance/succession law, confidentiality obligations and possibly some sector-specific laws. It's a lot more complicated and full of holes for specific types of digital data. I wish we had a law like France has! Regardless of when we might have a European law harmonizing this aspect across Member States, it's still important to ask yourself: Who is allowed to have access to your accounts and data after you pass? You might still want to give your younger sibling access to your Steam account later, or you need your spouse to be able to log in and keep a personal website up and running, or save pictures from the cloud. For this, you should make sure that the correct people can have access to your accounts in case of death, and know what to do with them. How you do that is up to you: You might set up something that automatically notifies them about how to access your accounts in times of death when you don't check in for a while, or you tell them a physical location where they can find the device passwords and the Master password to your password manager. I personally mention it in my when i die page. Remember to keep this information updated! Some companies and services, like Apple, Google and Meta, offer settings about what should happen after your death (usually called Digital Legacy tools, Inactive Account preferences, or Memorialization). You're able to set a successor/manager, deletion preferences and more, depending on the service. You have to dig a little in the settings, but if you're reading this right now, I encourage you to go find it. Good to know: Despite setting someone as a legacy contact, these companies might still request additional documents to prove that you really died. On the other hand, it's also okay to want things to be deleted, either by family members, or automatically by the platform itself. At CPDP 2026, I participated in a workshop about digital remains, and my discussion partner said that her Instagram feels so personal that it should be deleted upon her death, but something like a LinkedIn she'd keep up. So decide for yourself: What accounts do you want deleted, which ones can remain up/dormant? You should communicate this clearly in a way the people tasked with your digital legacy can see it, and talk to these people about it beforehand, if possible, or set it up in the settings. If you want to keep data up, is there a maximum retention period you want to set so that the data would be deleted afterwards? As a next step, you have to think about the future. The world will move on without you, and even right now as you are reading this, we are building tech that promises to bring people "back to life" via AI. Even just a decade ago, you likely couldn't have foreseen where we are at the moment with tech being trained to impersonate you. So where will we be decades down the line? That may require the restraints you set in a will to be more on the tech-agnostic side instead of just banning very specific processes and products. This is not just about the recent Meta AI thing; there are several companies in this space, as it looks to be a profitable new market niche: Bereavement tech . So, how do you want your data to be processed? Do you want tech to be trained on it? Do you allow the platform, or your relatives, to train AI on your accounts and other data and media they have on you? Your account might keep posting for you as if you were still alive, generate selfies or videos with your likeness, or it will respond to messages people send to it so they can keep chatting with "you". Side note : Does this truly help the grieving process? I guess we'll have to find out. A physical removal of items, telephone numbers going out of business, and a burial help saying goodbye and accept the finality of it all. Yet social media accounts can exist visually unchanged for years afterward, as the platform may nudge you to message them, reminds you of their birthday, or shows memories from a couple years ago out of nowhere on your feed. If we soon have the option to have people posting as if nothing happened to them, they stay stuck how they were when they died forever. If you never have to deal with the deafening silence from the other party, do you ever really have to grapple with death? And will the person die a second time for you when they stop offering the model? Maybe that's something you wanna blog your thoughts about :) It doesn't have to be so personal and focused on social media platforms as well. How about archives? Museums? You might laugh at the idea, but most stuff in museums is by ordinary people; we might not even know their name. Some people become famous after their death and their possessions and likeness are displayed for people to learn about them (for example: Anne Frank). We get great insights from the things they left behind that they thought no one would read, and if we're honest, likely wouldn't have consented to be out there. This will increasingly happen with digital means. How okay are you with a holo-you or virtual avatar greeting people in a museum? You might not care about any of this at all - if you're dead, then what does privacy and the data matter? It's not like it can still affect you! And that's fair. The views on this can be pretty diverse. Others see the digital remains as a digital version/informational "body" that should also be untouchable and remain undisturbed, and that there should be a general right not to "become a bot". Reading papers and studies about this topic is interesting, because it seems if you belong to the current older generations, you are more in favor of deleting it all, while the younger generations want to keep it up 2 . This makes sense: They might have way more online friends they'd wanna keep this up for. Women seem more in favor to deleting everything than men are 2 , which I can totally see; women tend to make a lot of negative experiences online that center the loss of control over their data and misuse of it. Death, without being able to lock down or delete anything based on developments online seems like the biggest loss of control of all. There are country and cultural differences as well. Unfortunately, unless you control the data (your own Mastodon instance, your self-hosted personal website, etc.), you are reliant on these services to heed your/your loved ones' requests about this. As the big social media companies' business model relies on data harvesting and using existing data for new projects and growth, this might be a hard fight in the future, as they see it as their property. Companies can hold the data hostage because of a lack of laws in your region and no goodwill from their side. There have also been cases already where the companies have refused giving access of a deceased's account to the relatives until a court decided they had to. How many would just give up? For good digital hygiene, we should remember death and make it as easy as possible or sensible for the people we leave behind to get the access they need to manage our stuff how we want them to. Organize your data well (maybe you also want to do some recurring digital version of Swedish Death Cleaning ?), leave instructions, set emergency/legacy access when available, include digital assets in your will, decide how your data is allowed to be used after death, especially around AI replicas. Families should talk about this openly, and relatives and nurses should learn to ask affected parties about these things. Previous related entry: plans for your blog after you die Reply via email Published 15 Jun, 2026 France is very invested in this aspect and its data protection authority (CNIL) has made it one of their main points and even wrote a paper on it. ↩ The CNIL paper has some study summaries about this on page 15. Generally speaking, another good study to read is this one . ↩ France is very invested in this aspect and its data protection authority (CNIL) has made it one of their main points and even wrote a paper on it. ↩ The CNIL paper has some study summaries about this on page 15. Generally speaking, another good study to read is this one . ↩

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something my wife said today

I'm feeling pretty down in the dumps today. As my wife listened to me and kindly massaged my feet to make me feel better, she said " It's exhausting how life is like training with Yoda at Dagobah. Everything is about overcoming obstacles, waiting, and having patience. " Thought that was funny, and cute. Reply via email Published 15 Jun, 2026

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what i read this week - week 24 2026

As usual - not counting the personal blogs I read :) Not much appealed to me this week. The AI ‘Revolution' is Not a People's Revolution - AI companies overusing the term revolution is just a marketing ploy, and we should challenge it. Banger quote: " Accepting Blair’s revolution requires agreeing that using unconsented data harvested from populations, processed through biased algorithms and presented to people in addictive interfaces that overwhelmingly generate wealth to US elites, is the change that people want. " Trump Signs Previously Shelved AI Executive Order - summary of the EO. Widerstand gegen Kameras - German article about resistance against surveillance cameras; its history, methods and legal consequences. Person in the comments has an interesting tip: A brush, and acrylic paint mixed with sand. UN-Report zu KI-Umweltkosten - German article about how the UN had the chance of holding tech companies accountable in a new report, but instead only asks consumers to adjust their behavior. I am not opposed to also asking people to rethink their consumer decisions (otherwise, I would not resist using animal products, flying, getting a driver's license etc.; if there's no buyer, there's no product), but for the biggest impact, we need to focus on the source and hold companies to a high standard - or ban their business model or product entirely. The report was also seen as low quality by experts in the field(s). Appeals Centre Europe Transparency Report April 2025 - March 2026 - The Appeals Centre is an independent out-of-court dispute settlement body active due to the Digital Services Act; they've only been around for 18 months. If you are in the EU, you can use them to challenge social media platforms’ decisions on groups, pages accounts or other content which has been removed or kept up despite reporting (if it is about anything other than impersonation, hacked accounts, copyright or CSAM, but hopefully those too at some point). Most cases seem to be about account suspensions, nudity, fraud and scams. So far, they have processed more than 24,000 disputes, where 12,000+ of those fell within their scope. The report has some stats about their work, how many times they disagreed with the platform and overturned the result, and more. DSA User Support Guide also by the Appeals Centre; good breakdown of your rights under the Digital Services Act. The platforms are supposed to tell you that orgs like the Appeal Centre exist, but somehow still don't, and many people don't know their rights. Hold them accountable! Know your rights and make use of the newly established bodies. Under Article 20 of the DSA, users must be able to lodge complaints, free-of-charge, against decisions taken by the platforms within the last six months. Dark Patterns in AI Chatbots - self explanatory; basically about design and interaction/output choices that maximize usage and data collection, lie about the capabilities and emotional intimacy etc. I learned a new term: Privacy Zuckering! Also made me read this about Gemini encouraging a guy to kill others, steal a mannequin, and then kill himself. Arbeitspapier Identifizierbarkeit - German BayLfD summary and interpretation around identified and identifiable personal data in edge cases/gray areas, especially around pseudonymous data. What means to identify "count"? Not just your own! There's a difference between relative/subjective identification and absolute/objective identification. Sidenote: Love that they recommend RSS-Feeds or a Mastodon Account to keep up to date on legislation in this. From intent to action: the leaders' guide to building AI-powered workplace - paper sponsored by Kyocera and done by Economist Impact, based on a survey of 639 senior executives conducted in October and November 2025, with in-depth interviews with businesses and "thought leaders" in AI, digital transformation and workforce strategy. So... take it with a grain of salt, it is very corporate and very incentivized to be pro-AI in the workplace. Their key findings show that they want more investment, more adoption. But: Despite the "propaganda" (so to say), it exposes a lot of weaknesses everyone is already talking about in the workplace. To name one thing I scoffed at: Page 12, the fact that so many measure ROI of AI use in vague "employee productivity", which is probably just increased output or increased closed cases, without looking at the quality. Sad. 4% are not even measuring any ROI for it! Our Data After Us - paper by the CNIL about our digital remains. Covers questions like: Do you want the content to remain after your death? Who gets to have access and manage it? Should that person delete it, or should the platform automatically delete it? Should your remains be used to train an AI to impersonate you to help your loved ones? There seem to be age and gender differences to these answers. You Trust Your Chatbot With Everything - Should You? - paper by Theodore Christakis from AI-Regulation.com. The findings are as expected: Every major provider now trains on consumer chats by default, providers typically reserve safety and abuse-prevention uses and feedback actions to override the training opt-out, and they all reserve the right for humans to read the conversation. The author suggests a " Sealed Mode " where the default settings/options constrain reuse and human access, allows no training, has no advertising, little personalization, and cryptographic hardening. In my view, it could be a good first step, but I fear in practice, it would be bastardized, as meaningless and misleading as Incognito Mode in browsers has been. Ideally, the things of a Sealed Mode should be the default you can then opt out of one by one, and it can be legislated so. We have seen that hidden settings within different menus and specific modes you have to first know about and then turn on do not help the average user, since they are never actively prompted about them or told about them by the company. This stuff only aids a risk-transfer from controller to data subject. So do not offer a silly little compromise - make them default, and do not allow it to cost anything. Choosing between payment or privacy sucks. We should sometimes ask ourselves: If LLMs are just another tool, would I want Microsoft to always have access to and review my Excel sheets? Of course not! So why should we accept this here? At times, the author is too timid for me (" Yet the purpose of adopting this prism is not to export the GDPR as a universal template, nor to argue that the world should converge on European legal categories of individual control. " hey, why not? We don't have the Brussels Effect for nothing; privacy legislation worldwide has been shaped by the GDPR, one example being Brazil!). Favorite chapter was the second one (Ghost in the Machine), as it goes in on how incomplete and lacking the warning labels are, together with how contradicting they are when everything else encourages you to freely share anything. Least favorite are the parts where chatbots are asked to answer something; I am sorry, but I will never see these as genuine, truthful, verifiable answers. This is treating them as a conscious employee that an regurgitate internal policies, not a probability machine who can be nudged to give specific output. Gewalteskalation als System: Nihilistic Violent Extremism in Deutschland - German paper on NVE that's mostly done by children and teens, who connect online over misanthropic and nihilistic tendencies and then see extreme violence and vandalism as the only way forward. Not always far-right or incels, but often. The paper explicitly mentions the Com network, 764, MKY and NLM. Aside from Telegram, Discord is the biggest place for it. I was surprised how lax and wide the definition of violent extremism is (imo, that would make a significant portion of the population violent extremists), and I think the way the authors narrow it down a bit is a good attempt. 28.05.2026 – 26 O 869/26 aka the big one currently making the rounds about Google being responsible for the AI summary output. It will be interesting to see how that progresses and if it will be overruled. This one for noyb. In total, that is roughly ~ 350 pages, if we count an online article as two pages on average; difficult to judge for 17776, I'd put it as 40 pages, maybe. Reply via email Published 14 Jun, 2026 The AI ‘Revolution' is Not a People's Revolution - AI companies overusing the term revolution is just a marketing ploy, and we should challenge it. Banger quote: " Accepting Blair’s revolution requires agreeing that using unconsented data harvested from populations, processed through biased algorithms and presented to people in addictive interfaces that overwhelmingly generate wealth to US elites, is the change that people want. " Trump Signs Previously Shelved AI Executive Order - summary of the EO. Widerstand gegen Kameras - German article about resistance against surveillance cameras; its history, methods and legal consequences. Person in the comments has an interesting tip: A brush, and acrylic paint mixed with sand. UN-Report zu KI-Umweltkosten - German article about how the UN had the chance of holding tech companies accountable in a new report, but instead only asks consumers to adjust their behavior. I am not opposed to also asking people to rethink their consumer decisions (otherwise, I would not resist using animal products, flying, getting a driver's license etc.; if there's no buyer, there's no product), but for the biggest impact, we need to focus on the source and hold companies to a high standard - or ban their business model or product entirely. The report was also seen as low quality by experts in the field(s). Appeals Centre Europe Transparency Report April 2025 - March 2026 - The Appeals Centre is an independent out-of-court dispute settlement body active due to the Digital Services Act; they've only been around for 18 months. If you are in the EU, you can use them to challenge social media platforms’ decisions on groups, pages accounts or other content which has been removed or kept up despite reporting (if it is about anything other than impersonation, hacked accounts, copyright or CSAM, but hopefully those too at some point). Most cases seem to be about account suspensions, nudity, fraud and scams. So far, they have processed more than 24,000 disputes, where 12,000+ of those fell within their scope. The report has some stats about their work, how many times they disagreed with the platform and overturned the result, and more. DSA User Support Guide also by the Appeals Centre; good breakdown of your rights under the Digital Services Act. The platforms are supposed to tell you that orgs like the Appeal Centre exist, but somehow still don't, and many people don't know their rights. Hold them accountable! Know your rights and make use of the newly established bodies. Under Article 20 of the DSA, users must be able to lodge complaints, free-of-charge, against decisions taken by the platforms within the last six months. Dark Patterns in AI Chatbots - self explanatory; basically about design and interaction/output choices that maximize usage and data collection, lie about the capabilities and emotional intimacy etc. I learned a new term: Privacy Zuckering! Also made me read this about Gemini encouraging a guy to kill others, steal a mannequin, and then kill himself. Arbeitspapier Identifizierbarkeit - German BayLfD summary and interpretation around identified and identifiable personal data in edge cases/gray areas, especially around pseudonymous data. What means to identify "count"? Not just your own! There's a difference between relative/subjective identification and absolute/objective identification. Sidenote: Love that they recommend RSS-Feeds or a Mastodon Account to keep up to date on legislation in this. From intent to action: the leaders' guide to building AI-powered workplace - paper sponsored by Kyocera and done by Economist Impact, based on a survey of 639 senior executives conducted in October and November 2025, with in-depth interviews with businesses and "thought leaders" in AI, digital transformation and workforce strategy. So... take it with a grain of salt, it is very corporate and very incentivized to be pro-AI in the workplace. Their key findings show that they want more investment, more adoption. But: Despite the "propaganda" (so to say), it exposes a lot of weaknesses everyone is already talking about in the workplace. To name one thing I scoffed at: Page 12, the fact that so many measure ROI of AI use in vague "employee productivity", which is probably just increased output or increased closed cases, without looking at the quality. Sad. 4% are not even measuring any ROI for it! Our Data After Us - paper by the CNIL about our digital remains. Covers questions like: Do you want the content to remain after your death? Who gets to have access and manage it? Should that person delete it, or should the platform automatically delete it? Should your remains be used to train an AI to impersonate you to help your loved ones? There seem to be age and gender differences to these answers. You Trust Your Chatbot With Everything - Should You? - paper by Theodore Christakis from AI-Regulation.com. The findings are as expected: Every major provider now trains on consumer chats by default, providers typically reserve safety and abuse-prevention uses and feedback actions to override the training opt-out, and they all reserve the right for humans to read the conversation. The author suggests a " Sealed Mode " where the default settings/options constrain reuse and human access, allows no training, has no advertising, little personalization, and cryptographic hardening. In my view, it could be a good first step, but I fear in practice, it would be bastardized, as meaningless and misleading as Incognito Mode in browsers has been. Ideally, the things of a Sealed Mode should be the default you can then opt out of one by one, and it can be legislated so. We have seen that hidden settings within different menus and specific modes you have to first know about and then turn on do not help the average user, since they are never actively prompted about them or told about them by the company. This stuff only aids a risk-transfer from controller to data subject. So do not offer a silly little compromise - make them default, and do not allow it to cost anything. Choosing between payment or privacy sucks. We should sometimes ask ourselves: If LLMs are just another tool, would I want Microsoft to always have access to and review my Excel sheets? Of course not! So why should we accept this here? At times, the author is too timid for me (" Yet the purpose of adopting this prism is not to export the GDPR as a universal template, nor to argue that the world should converge on European legal categories of individual control. " hey, why not? We don't have the Brussels Effect for nothing; privacy legislation worldwide has been shaped by the GDPR, one example being Brazil!). Favorite chapter was the second one (Ghost in the Machine), as it goes in on how incomplete and lacking the warning labels are, together with how contradicting they are when everything else encourages you to freely share anything. Least favorite are the parts where chatbots are asked to answer something; I am sorry, but I will never see these as genuine, truthful, verifiable answers. This is treating them as a conscious employee that an regurgitate internal policies, not a probability machine who can be nudged to give specific output. Gewalteskalation als System: Nihilistic Violent Extremism in Deutschland - German paper on NVE that's mostly done by children and teens, who connect online over misanthropic and nihilistic tendencies and then see extreme violence and vandalism as the only way forward. Not always far-right or incels, but often. The paper explicitly mentions the Com network, 764, MKY and NLM. Aside from Telegram, Discord is the biggest place for it. I was surprised how lax and wide the definition of violent extremism is (imo, that would make a significant portion of the population violent extremists), and I think the way the authors narrow it down a bit is a good attempt. 28.05.2026 – 26 O 869/26 aka the big one currently making the rounds about Google being responsible for the AI summary output. It will be interesting to see how that progresses and if it will be overruled. This one for noyb. Don't know if it counts as it is a web format, but I finished reading 17776 by Jon Bois.

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our workplace LLM mass delusion

I can't help but wonder whether we will look back on this AI hype in the workplace with confusion and embarrassment. If we indeed progress into a future where the bubble will burst, models will further close up, become too expensive for the average user, enshittified, or really specialized for specific fields and most promises end up not fulfilled, how will employers everywhere play this off? How will employees recover from witnessing this cultish environment suddenly dropping off as if nothing happened? My employer, for example, struggles with funding. Open positions are not to be filled and will just fall away; employee bonuses for great work have been cancelled 2 years ago due to the tense financial situation; necessities fell away with a message to just " find a way to deal with it ". Several departments are completely overworked with no help in sight, and are just asked to cut corners. Important licenses and databases are just dropped to save money. This is the backdrop to our AI adoption in the workplace. Still, somehow, there is enough money to hire consultants that advise to go all in on AI for a possible future where money can be saved, and enough money to pay external companies for LLM workshops and seminars for employees for years, and enough money to pay for licenses of both ChatGPT and Copilot. That means: The employee bonuses that should go to all the hardworking employees, and the money to further support our work, is going to grifters, security risks, bad workshops that are not teaching anything remotely usable for our work, and technofascists. Not only that! We have recurring house-wide meetings where groups are asked to show off their LLM projects. They register them, try them out for a couple months, and then come back presenting their results. I have attended all of these meetings so far, and there was not a single one that actually worked out . All projects ended with the conclusion that this isn't workable, that this isn't saving time, or that it over-complicates things. Hundreds of people, different teams, people enthusiastic about AI, all kinds of projects, and there wasn't a single success . All kinds of workshops, "prompt-engineering", custom GPTs and skills, pre-prepared documents and templates could not make something truly effective and reproducible in our field of work (not anything coding related!). It was a messy gamble every time . It took a significant amount of time to fine-tune everything, to repeat the task, to verify the output, and correct mistakes before continuing with the rest of the workflow. Not considering this or that document, hallucinations, inability to fill in documents correctly or edit them were the biggest complaints. Even on an Enterprise license, the restrictions were too great. But wait, there's more! We also have house-wide meetings where employees show off how ChatGPT can be used regardless of specific projects; just general use cases for the workday. Let me tell you what great things were shown off. For one , it was shown that you can ask the bot how it feels today. That wasn't presented as a joke, or being sarcastic; no, it was shown very seriously, I guess under the guise of how cool and futuristic and human it is. I'm getting really upset here at the point of writing this, because I have to fight hard to get the funding for the database my team needs for my work and have to justify it every year, and I know that in any other contexts, or just 5 years ago, they would have laughed in your face if you suggested to get a subscription in the thousands to enable employees to have a pointless conversation with a bot. Hello, we have shit to do over here, departments are drowning in work, and you wanna have software that talks to you? That would have been the response, and it is the correct response still!! People like that need to be treated like the fools they are, and we need to challenge them more! Next up was the great use case of downloading the cafeteria menu (which is a 1 page nicely designed Excel sheet, like a timetable, showing the different options for each day) from the intranet, giving it to ChatGPT, and asking it what's for lunch on Wednesday. I wish I was joking . I WISH! The bot spat out a longer answer than reading the entire sheet would be. Downloading and uploading and writing the prompt took longer than just reading the sheet. You can see what's for lunch on Wednesday with one glance already. No bot needed! The other general use case presented to us (by our head of IT, no less) was that if we are not sure whether something is a spam mail, phishing attempt, a mail with a suspicious attachment, whatever... we should save it to our Desktop, upload it to ChatGPT and ask it. Good god. I am still in disbelief. I'm sorry, but I don't want the less technically inclined employees among us to save anything shady onto their work laptop. Come on now. What is happening? Have we lost our minds? Intentional or not, AI is seemingly great at amplifying the Dunning-Kruger-Effect in people, making everything they attempt with it seem smarter and justified to them, packaging every fart in a nice bow that makes it seem deep initially. People can pretend they’re now doing something really important and groundbreaking while using the tool for completely mundane and worthless tasks that are better handled differently. Defenders of the tech can feel like they’re part of something big and revolutionary and fantasize about the day they will be proven right and all the critics will shut up or apologize (like my conspiracy theorist dad, who still clings to the same prophecies after over a decade, hoping to be ahead of the curve and right for once in his disappointing life). It’s sad, because it feels like a completely out-of-control delusion; you see smart and capable people with lots of responsibility at work suddenly turn into a shill for these AI companies without any rhyme or reason. A highly qualified person, suddenly reduced to the same presence as a door-to-door salesman lying about how well the cleaning product really works, making up use cases that are neither useful nor working right. How is a person like you suddenly reduced to praising the option to ask a bot to summarize a damn 1 page lunch table and present it as a good use case in a company-wide meeting? What have you done to arrive at this point? It’s pure hype, eerily much so, and these people cannot possibly admit that. We have no specific problems it can solve in this workplace, at least 90% of the employees do not have work that would profit off of what Copilot etc can do; yet we attempt it anyway, each attempt worse than the prior one, inventing possible uses and creating problems where there are none, just to be able to burn tokens and justify a subscription, to cosplay the people in Sci-Fi media and have something to show upper management (" At least we tried "). We fall behind on our daily work to train an LLM, beg and plead with it and dance for it like court jesters, and poke around in the shit it spits out. If you ask around at my workplace, any use is good because it is a use and we are exploring and playing . It completely minimizes the time waste, the money sink, the effect of each use, and the powerful institutions behind these tools. And I just wonder: How did this befall us so quickly? There is never money for anything, but this unreliable tech with a huge upfront cost got through immediately? New tech usually passes the public sector by, but this one got all the attention? It takes years or even a decade to implement any sort of change or new ideas into this beast, yet we had the infrastructure and organizational bandwidth to deal with AI up within a blink of an eye? It is creepy to realize how capable a place really is, and how easily things can be implemented - if the leadership just wants to. It's a complete mask-off moment, underlining that it is never impossible or slow-going by default; it is intentional, by design, and could be improved any time. This is a completely trust-shattering moment for any employee. This is why I asked at the start of this post how we are supposed to move forward from this at some point. How are we all collectively supposed to forget and move past experiencing a point when the respectable elders in an institution have completely and totally embarrassed themselves in the name of "progress"? When all the gates and wallets have been opened for this utter disappointment, showing that the obstacles for implementing anything thought to be inherent and unavoidable in the organization are just a fluke, a lie, an arbitrary thing? How it all created a culture of feeling repeatedly gaslit over months about this whole assessment, as if you must be the one that is insane? I cannot forget this at all. This is my second Covid. As a final note: If none of that is happening in your workplace or life in general - genuinely good for you. Should be like that everywhere, hope that happens to me too eventually. I applaud you for the skilled and competent people in your life that choose AI use wisely, make the most of it, and offer good solutions. Happy for you if you work in an industry where its use makes sense and produces good output. But unfortunately, places and situations like the above exist, so let people commiserate about the insanity in them without attempting to deny what we’re experiencing. Reply via email Published 10 Jun, 2026

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the beach episode

Whenever I descend into a mental health episode (often, but not always, triggered by cycle-related hormonal changes), there’s very specific signs both my wife and I pick up on. She usually notices it earlier than me, though. The pattern is always the same: Because it is all so repetitive (been happening for over a decade) and well-known to me by now, I see it for what it is and it doesn’t actually cause any harm, as I do not end up even close to making these drastic decisions. I am still in control. At worst, I used to unfriend people or exit groups, but even that has stopped. I wouldn’t say my opinions snd obsessions during that time have no leg to stand on; I have a high standard for what my apartment is supposed to look like, and it’s not always up to par. I really wanna switch jobs, move, or change some blog design things some time. But how I feel about it is dramatically amplified, and introducing a very unfitting level of urgency, life-or-death panic about it all. It almost feels like it’s taking a similar pathway to a phase of hyperfocus, but in a cursed way. It also feels like seeking validation and good feelings/a feeling of control from changing things or cleaning, which would make sense for my brain to wanna do when I feel depressed. Like it’s searching for anything that could help. Since some people might be wondering: It doesn’t fulfill the criteria for mania. My anxiety just gets elevated, and my brain decides to handle it in a weird way. I don’t feel happy or energized. Since it is hormonal, I imagine it is related to what some pregnant people go through with their sensitivity to their surroundings. As this is a largely offline thing, I can usually isolate it well and not say a peep about it happening online. I hope I don’t seem weirdly different in my blog posts during it, I genuinely can’t tell. I’m actually going through it again right now, since last week. Dienogest (hormone medication for this mood stuff, PMOD and endometriosis) bought me a while of stability when I tried it from March to mid of May, and I appreciate that; it showed me how often it happened and how bad it really was. I stopped taking it since then because it caused some excessive bleeding, but am restarting it now after a doctor’s appointment today. It’s not all bad. The things I am so inappropriately upset about are true/exist, it’s just my reaction that is a problem. I can harness the sense of urgency and tackle these issues in a constructive way and get things done that I have put off for too long. For example, the sneakers I wear the most have been falling apart so much that walking in them causes blisters and chafing and stuff to poke me while walking. Still, I kept procrastinating on buying new ones. Today, after a particularly exhausting morning in this mental health episode, I bought two new pairs of shoes and was able to discard the broken ones. I also lost my mind about the clutter so much that I ended up discussing new shelf units with my wife, who kindly measured everything out and had good ideas, so we ended up ordering some together and will pick them up tomorrow. It wasn’t a compulsive purchase I’d regret for something I don’t actually need, but instead, I used my tumultuous emotions to finally tackle the issue of needing to use my space more efficiently now, and the decision was made deliberately over the span of a couple hours. I need more storage for more hobbies I acquired over the last years, and things my wife keeps here that don’t yet have their own proper spot. The way things are right now was supposed to be a temporary state until we can move somewhere bigger, but I’ve accepted that this could take years, so I wanna invest into making it comfortable now. In the near future, I also wanna have more storage in the kitchen and bathroom, finally donate the clothes I decided to get rid of, and tidy up the basement. I also felt equally compelled to switch email providers and get 98% of account/newsletter email switching done, updated all saved passwords, and removed saved passwords for accounts that no longer exist. I’m happy that I was able to use my struggle for good today. I still hate everything else about it, and that it’s so uncomfortable and stressful in my head right now, but at least I got that. Can’t wait until I’m stabilized again. Reply via email Published 08 Jun, 2026 Issues falling asleep, feeling inexplicably sad and without energy, not finding joy in anything I usually like, or possibly sleeping almost all day. Getting up the next morning with a very, very low tolerance for clutter, or even owning anything more than bare necessities. Being extremely sensitive to dirt, smells, messes, crumbs and so on. The entire living space and my body starts to feel contaminated. This causing me to spiral and feeling overwhelmed, ranting about how the apartment is hopeless, that I wish I could just leave it or burn it down, that I wanna sell everything, what needs to be done etc. I start cleaning and tidying up for hours in a really tense way, maybe even decluttering, if I can manage and am not frozen in overwhelm. If you step in at that moment to tell me it isn’t even that bad or that I should keep whatever I wanna throw out in that moment, my laser eyes will turn you into dust (I wish). Everything feels very urgent, like I need to do it now or else something really bad will happen; as if I will lose control and this is the last moment to turn it around. Being able to do nothing to alleviate the situation makes me feel sick. My thoughts race and I am stuck in a loop. I’m coping with fantasizing about drastic decisions: Emigrating to a different country, quitting my job, booking a trip on a whim, suicide, selling everything, rearranging my apartment, ending relationships or friendships, deleting accounts, redesigning my entire website and blog from scratch, exiting groups, and so on.

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changed email address!

Just letting you know that my email address has changed from @pm.me to @tuta.com . The change is reflected in the footer and post template already. I don't know what I will do about the 400+ old posts that have the old email address attached yet; email forwarding has been set, but it will apparently run out next year as my subscription to Proton lapses. Currently in the process of exporting and importing mails, transferring files, and changing newsletters and accounts to use the new email address(es). I respect what Proton is trying to accomplish with their product suite, yet I feel like they are spread too thin, releasing unpolished product after unpolished product, and not putting enough effort into adequately supporting what they already have. On top of that, their questionable approach to politics as well as their recent sponsorship of a far-right French YouTuber was the final nail in the coffin for me. Their responses about this matter didn't cut it for me, as they evade the actual problem and responsibility. Personal politics (and the fact that I don't want my money to go benefit people who want to take away our rights) aside: If you lose sight of who you are sponsoring and where your money goes, and you cannot even clearly tell your customers what you have changed so that will not happen again, that is mismanagement I can't ignore. Reply via email Published 08 Jun, 2026

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what i read this week - week 23 2026

I've read less this week than the prior one. I was catching up on a lot of recorded talks from re:publica 26, which I couldn't attend (those talks will get their own post!). I was also a tad busy with meeting people and doing the ring class, and also unfortunately struggling with depression. I didn't manage reading a lot of the stuff I meant to read. Oh well. Character.AI enshittification - good example of what will arrive at other models and use cases soon, inevitably, especially since this stuff is so expensive. EU's Digitalisation Push : Surveillance, control, exclusion - Made me learn about the concept of the increasingly "digital welfare state" and how governments worldwide are using tech to automate, predict, and "optimise the delivery of social protections". This means people most vulnerable, who need state safety nets the most, are also most at risk of having their privacy violated, their data collected and sold, and their behavior automatically analyzed. It's getting easier and easier for the EU to grab control over social security aspects instead of leaving it to the MS, due to classifying the digital exchange of data between governments, digitalization etc. as an EU issue. I have some issue with the presentation of the facts because they make it seem as if your data is only now just coming online, when in fact, it has been on government agencies' servers for over a decade already, and exchanged between them; it was just not accessible online to you . It was a hassle for you to get anything digitally in return. So yes, while the risks are there, and there are new projects and developments, a lot of it is just finally making sure you get an easier access to your own data as well, and hopefully have to submit less paperwork. I can say that as an employee in the public sector who was partially involved in our internal changes we made to comply with Germany's new Onlinezugangsgesetz (OZG; "online access act"). Our servers and databases stayed the same; now you just no longer need to send out a pigeon with a note and hope to hear something back within the next 5 years when you want something from [my employer]. They also underestimate how much need-to-know basis there is in granting access; no one will have a complete 360-view access to a digital life file. I don't like how it's just presented as inevitable that your doctor can see info about your housing situation, as if this would be in any way complying with any privacy regulation, or the reality of the software state of any doctor's office (it is bad). Aside from the digital aspect, the risk of the government just completely shutting off your lifeline has not increased, since they could already have all the info and decide to do so when your life was a folder in an office. Linked in, and related to, the prior one: UN Digital Welfare Dystopia - from 2019, exploring how digital welfare is often used to cut welfare spending, set up intrusive government surveillance and generate profits for private companies as these supply the systems. EU €200 Million Temu Fine - Temu breached the Digital Services Act as it failed to properly assess the systemic risks posed by illegal and unsafe products being sold in the EU. The attack on competence - amazing read about how uses of LLMs get differently scrutinized at work, and how real competence (which is usually about constraints, structure, patience, testing, knowing your craft etc.) is outshined by this sort of fake competence companies value nowadays, in which the vibecoder who cares about none of these things is pushing out a lot of stuff and is seen as more impressive or working harder. They are protected and encouraged by the investor class (usually the management) to continue to use LLMs this sloppy way under the guise of "moving fast and breaking things", because they only care about the superficial numbers as it helps them build legitimacy by posting that stuff on LinkedIn or when they are speaking about technology at conferences and meetings. Management can begin to feel quite threatened by real competence, as the competent people are not yes-men like the vibecoders. AI promised this investor class to finally eliminate the need for competence and not have to consider or respect any feedback other than their own (which they generate with sycophantic AI). I'm... actually fighting a somewhat similar fight at work right now, so this hits home. Debate over UK Migrant Age Assessment - AI wrongly assigns minors as adults, which poses dangers. European operators get more satellite spectrum - European companies get prioritized in the satellite spectrum. Orbans Payroll - The Lajos Batthyány Foundation and its Danube Institute spent a ton of money to buy influence on the Western Right, particularly spending it on public figures of the Western right-wing media and think-tanks. Meta Silently Added Face-Recognition Code for Its Smart Glasses to Millions of Phones - ( Archive ) - an AI companion app by Meta that is needed to use key feature of the glasses has code for NameTag included now. NameTag will use biometric features of the people you're looking at to check if they are already registered on your phone, and for info/notifications regarding them. I assume this is for when you meet people you know and it shows you facts around them, a summary of your last exchange, etc.? I understand why people might think this is useful in a vacuum/ideal world, but damn, not like this, in this climate... Why the AI Policy Debate Should Focus More on the Harness and Protocol Layers - loooong transcribed interview with the chief technology officer of Mozilla about AI, especially cybersecurity. I find his takes about the dual use nature a bit naive and evasive of the real issues, as well as how many issues AI causes for open source, but it was an interesting read. Shocking though that he spends $1,500 a month on his AI agent, and he can't even properly explain what he does with it, aside from... checking his calendar? But I am giving him grace in that sometimes you just aren't that great with explaining stuff spontaneously in a podcast. What I also don't like in general, in many formats and interviews like this one, how people can just say "We could build this very privacy-invasive tech in a way that is privacy-respecting, but we choose not to." which at first is right, depending on the tech, but then it's about Ring cameras, car cameras and other surveillance in public, and it's like - how? Either you get recorded and it alters your behavior, or you aren't. There is no middle way for some of this, but they always get away with saying that without offering specifics. FAQ zur Bezahlkarte - German FAQ about the payment cards for refugees. It's a problem that every area handles them differently, support is patchy, they can not be used to pay online, teens cannot get one, and the cards allow a very low amount to be withdrawn and spent. Gewerkschaftsgründung bei Wikimedia - German article about how Wikimedia (mainly their US branch) is attempting to unionize! federated IT architecture in Cross-border e-Services for Business Mobility, Updating Connected Company Data and Online Ship and Crew Certificates. Single Digital Gateway - official explanation for the Single Digital Gateway -> facilitates online access to information, administrative procedures, and assistance services that EU citizens and businesses may need in another EU country. Improving AI Labels - YouTube's new AI labels Positionspapier Verbraucherzentrale zur Datenschutzaufsichtsreform - opinion of the German consumer rights organization on the coming changes to our data protection authorities. They make clear they want unambiguous responsibilities, same decision-making processes and results across the board (right now, each DPA is kinda giving their own, sometimes wildly varying positions), fast help and decisions for citizens, no centralization in the non-public sphere, a possible One-Stop-Shop on the national level, and more resources for our Datenschutzkonferenz (DSK). Gesetzesentwurf zur Durchführung der Verordnung (EU) 2024/2847 (Cyberresilienz-Verordnung) BfDI fordert Bundestransparenzgesetz None this time, couldn't make it. I have several open tabs of some though, especially around the new tech sovereignty package... I am also currently reading Arne Semsrott's new book; I am about 40 pages in (from a small ~180). In total, that is roughly ~ 125 pages, if we count an article as two pages on average. Reply via email Published 07 Jun, 2026 Character.AI enshittification - good example of what will arrive at other models and use cases soon, inevitably, especially since this stuff is so expensive. EU's Digitalisation Push : Surveillance, control, exclusion - Made me learn about the concept of the increasingly "digital welfare state" and how governments worldwide are using tech to automate, predict, and "optimise the delivery of social protections". This means people most vulnerable, who need state safety nets the most, are also most at risk of having their privacy violated, their data collected and sold, and their behavior automatically analyzed. It's getting easier and easier for the EU to grab control over social security aspects instead of leaving it to the MS, due to classifying the digital exchange of data between governments, digitalization etc. as an EU issue. I have some issue with the presentation of the facts because they make it seem as if your data is only now just coming online, when in fact, it has been on government agencies' servers for over a decade already, and exchanged between them; it was just not accessible online to you . It was a hassle for you to get anything digitally in return. So yes, while the risks are there, and there are new projects and developments, a lot of it is just finally making sure you get an easier access to your own data as well, and hopefully have to submit less paperwork. I can say that as an employee in the public sector who was partially involved in our internal changes we made to comply with Germany's new Onlinezugangsgesetz (OZG; "online access act"). Our servers and databases stayed the same; now you just no longer need to send out a pigeon with a note and hope to hear something back within the next 5 years when you want something from [my employer]. They also underestimate how much need-to-know basis there is in granting access; no one will have a complete 360-view access to a digital life file. I don't like how it's just presented as inevitable that your doctor can see info about your housing situation, as if this would be in any way complying with any privacy regulation, or the reality of the software state of any doctor's office (it is bad). Aside from the digital aspect, the risk of the government just completely shutting off your lifeline has not increased, since they could already have all the info and decide to do so when your life was a folder in an office. Linked in, and related to, the prior one: UN Digital Welfare Dystopia - from 2019, exploring how digital welfare is often used to cut welfare spending, set up intrusive government surveillance and generate profits for private companies as these supply the systems. EU €200 Million Temu Fine - Temu breached the Digital Services Act as it failed to properly assess the systemic risks posed by illegal and unsafe products being sold in the EU. The attack on competence - amazing read about how uses of LLMs get differently scrutinized at work, and how real competence (which is usually about constraints, structure, patience, testing, knowing your craft etc.) is outshined by this sort of fake competence companies value nowadays, in which the vibecoder who cares about none of these things is pushing out a lot of stuff and is seen as more impressive or working harder. They are protected and encouraged by the investor class (usually the management) to continue to use LLMs this sloppy way under the guise of "moving fast and breaking things", because they only care about the superficial numbers as it helps them build legitimacy by posting that stuff on LinkedIn or when they are speaking about technology at conferences and meetings. Management can begin to feel quite threatened by real competence, as the competent people are not yes-men like the vibecoders. AI promised this investor class to finally eliminate the need for competence and not have to consider or respect any feedback other than their own (which they generate with sycophantic AI). I'm... actually fighting a somewhat similar fight at work right now, so this hits home. Debate over UK Migrant Age Assessment - AI wrongly assigns minors as adults, which poses dangers. European operators get more satellite spectrum - European companies get prioritized in the satellite spectrum. Orbans Payroll - The Lajos Batthyány Foundation and its Danube Institute spent a ton of money to buy influence on the Western Right, particularly spending it on public figures of the Western right-wing media and think-tanks. Meta Silently Added Face-Recognition Code for Its Smart Glasses to Millions of Phones - ( Archive ) - an AI companion app by Meta that is needed to use key feature of the glasses has code for NameTag included now. NameTag will use biometric features of the people you're looking at to check if they are already registered on your phone, and for info/notifications regarding them. I assume this is for when you meet people you know and it shows you facts around them, a summary of your last exchange, etc.? I understand why people might think this is useful in a vacuum/ideal world, but damn, not like this, in this climate... Why the AI Policy Debate Should Focus More on the Harness and Protocol Layers - loooong transcribed interview with the chief technology officer of Mozilla about AI, especially cybersecurity. I find his takes about the dual use nature a bit naive and evasive of the real issues, as well as how many issues AI causes for open source, but it was an interesting read. Shocking though that he spends $1,500 a month on his AI agent, and he can't even properly explain what he does with it, aside from... checking his calendar? But I am giving him grace in that sometimes you just aren't that great with explaining stuff spontaneously in a podcast. What I also don't like in general, in many formats and interviews like this one, how people can just say "We could build this very privacy-invasive tech in a way that is privacy-respecting, but we choose not to." which at first is right, depending on the tech, but then it's about Ring cameras, car cameras and other surveillance in public, and it's like - how? Either you get recorded and it alters your behavior, or you aren't. There is no middle way for some of this, but they always get away with saying that without offering specifics. FAQ zur Bezahlkarte - German FAQ about the payment cards for refugees. It's a problem that every area handles them differently, support is patchy, they can not be used to pay online, teens cannot get one, and the cards allow a very low amount to be withdrawn and spent. Gewerkschaftsgründung bei Wikimedia - German article about how Wikimedia (mainly their US branch) is attempting to unionize! Gematik plant mehr Zentralisierung und Macht für sich - Organization responsible for our digital health stuff. IRINI dient nurnoch der Migrationsabwehr CDU, SPD und BSW wollen Überwachung in Sachsen ausweiten NRW will Haftung der Online-Plattformen erweitern - calls for platform owners to be held liable for deepfakes etc. under an amendment of the DSA. I think that makes sense, considering the decision impact of the Russmedia case. Recovery and Resilience Facility - official explanation of what the EU's Recovery and Resilience Facility (RRF) is. Member states are getting money for hitting specific goals in their plan, comprised of at least 37% going to green measures and 20% to digital measures. They must meet all milestones and targets by 31 August 2026, and the Commission must make the final payments by 31 December 2026. Once Only - official explanation of the Once Only Principle -> federated IT architecture in Cross-border e-Services for Business Mobility, Updating Connected Company Data and Online Ship and Crew Certificates. Single Digital Gateway - official explanation for the Single Digital Gateway -> facilitates online access to information, administrative procedures, and assistance services that EU citizens and businesses may need in another EU country. Improving AI Labels - YouTube's new AI labels Positionspapier Verbraucherzentrale zur Datenschutzaufsichtsreform - opinion of the German consumer rights organization on the coming changes to our data protection authorities. They make clear they want unambiguous responsibilities, same decision-making processes and results across the board (right now, each DPA is kinda giving their own, sometimes wildly varying positions), fast help and decisions for citizens, no centralization in the non-public sphere, a possible One-Stop-Shop on the national level, and more resources for our Datenschutzkonferenz (DSK). Gesetzesentwurf zur Durchführung der Verordnung (EU) 2024/2847 (Cyberresilienz-Verordnung) BfDI fordert Bundestransparenzgesetz This one about how a parent using retail video surveillance footage in child custody proceedings is a legitimate interest under Article 6(1)(f) GDPR. I summarized it for GDPRhub.

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i made a ring!

Not a webring - maybe some day - but an even cooler one! My wife and I went to the jewelry workshop our friends gifted us for our wedding last year. I had a moonstone at home I wanted to turn into a ring (yes, I do love big chunky gems as rings, as you might have already guessed from other pics of my hands, especially the aura quartz on my thumb), and she spontaneously made a necklace with a Cthulhu game symbol on it (Protection from Elder Gods). This is the loose stone. I bought that one together with a few others in 2019 in a display case, but soon that display case kinda feel apart (honestly paid way too much for it) so they are now loose in my other gem collection. This one was nicely vertical and so good for a chunky ring. If you are unfamiliar with moonstones , they are comparable to labradorites in the sense that tilting them around in light produces amazing color. This was the workstation: First step was to decide how thick the ring band was supposed to be, both the actual material thickness and how wide it's supposed to be. Then in a second step, what ring size, and how long the band needs to be. I wanted to comfortably wear it on my middle finger and possibly some others. My fingers can swell quite a bit since my months-long stint with Prednisone, so I went with a comfortable 61mm; you can always make it smaller anyway. So, cutting and measuring the right length, then slowly twisting the silver and aligning the ends so that they are really tight, tensing and pushing against each other. Was harder than I thought. It didn't need to be perfectly round yet, just aligned. Then it gets fired up with two pieces of silver to weld it all together. Next step was measuring around the stone to know how long the metal actually surrounding and holding the stone needs to be (the bezel). First used a paper strip, then used that to measure some silver, and twisted it through a machine to make it thinner and longer. Later, I hammered the ring into shape and polished the edges: The seam could be nicer, but to be fair, you don't see it now as that is where the stone is put on top of. Now I had to bend the bezel piece into the shape of the stone. That was by far the worst, and I just couldn't manage it on my own; when I had one part aligning correctly with the stone, the other would be bent out of shape again. And the second I lifted the stone away from the silver, I forgot what I needed to adjust again and how much. My wife had to help me with that. Now that piece needs a bottom. (don't we all) It gets put on a silver sheet, welded together, and then you cut the extra off and spend a fuckton of time sanding down the edges. Excuse the hands, this stuff is rough work, and I really should have gotten my nails done by now. The ring gets sanded down where the seam is so there is a flat surface that the bezel fits onto. Gets welded together again with a few pieces of silver. Next step is sanding down the top edges and if needed, shortening the bezel a little so not too much gets covered, then getting the stone in. Finally, you use a hammer and a thin chisel-like thing to collapse the bezel walls onto the stone so it is kept in place. Final result: Definitely not a ring for daily wear, but can be nice as a statement piece. :) You might notice that this isn't the side of the stone that was showing in all the other pictures. That is because we welded the bezel bottom onto the wrong side and didn't notice for far too long. But it's fine, because the other side works too, phew. Here's some progress shots of what my wife made: And the final result: All in all, I'm glad we did that, and very thankful to our friends who made it possible! But I suck really badly at this, was close to tears multiple times, and I am glad it is over and we both got something we like out of it. We ended the trip with a visit to a cafe. Reply via email Published 06 Jun, 2026

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be a good cook when you use AI to edit your writing

Whenever someone talks about how they let AI improve their writing, I realize we are still taking the wrong things away from what good writing supposedly is. Not that I am the arbiter of good writing, but we can agree that at its core, good writing is a pleasure to read, connects to the reader, respects the context and chooses the correct tone for the audience. It’s also about correctly identifying when “good” writing is needed at all. I think the literacy crisis we are going through extends in this way, where people aren’t just lacking in media literacy, but lacking in the skills above. It’s easy to think that good language is always full of jargon, that being an expert on something means long, drawn out explanations, and that you should use a supposedly intelligent, professorial tone all the time. It’s only with education and reading a lot that you learn that good writing is a spectrum, and all these things depend on the author’s style, occasion and intent, and are used in the right moments. That’s why people who generate responses to casual chat messages aren’t being met with excitement; cases like when you get an AI-generated Happy Birthday text, or when your friend replies to your vent with an AI-generated professional therapist response. These people want to do it right , but don’t respect context-switching and why some interactions need to decidedly be personal and “imperfect” to others. They have only taken away that good writing is big words, many words, and they are willing to shoehorn it into everything. I cannot blame anyone for reading over an AI-generated improvement of their text and thinking “ Wow, that’s so much better! ”. On the first read, it does seem impressive. And I don’t wanna sit here and pretend humans don’t manage to choose a completely wrong tone for the occasion or audience without AI as well, but it seems like many don’t actually tell AI the context or audience, and AI guesses incorrectly. People know what you sound like and how you usually write. Of course you are allowed to improve and change your writing style, but people will know when it is very sudden, completely out of character, and not something you’d manage on your own. And if you overdo it, AI will turn a concise, engaging and personal read with your own endearing quirks into either SEO marketing language, or an extremely dry scientific journal style read. You should be able to detect when that happens and take a step back. Otherwise you will sit there, proud of yourself that you wrote that, when it is so markedly different to your usual style and draft that you essentially employed a ghostwriter and pat yourself on the back for its output. And weirdly enough, I get the feeling many of you were never interested in “improving” your writing when it didn’t mean just copying a machine’s work. That’s having an editor, not you improving on your skills. You can liken it to skills in the kitchen: People who are just learning how to cook are learning about spices and think: The more spice, the better, so throw all of it in! Until a dish doesn’t taste good at all; too salty, too intense, everything is clashing. There is a point when it doesn’t elevate the dish, but ruins it. Some occasions don’t call for a curry, but instead a salad. A good cook will know the right dish and how to use ingredients and spices to make it pop. Don’t come with the fine dining if the people want your rustic potato bake. Employing AI to improve your text into oblivion is a slippery slope to sounding uneducated and phony. Please get away from the notion that longer and more complicated is better just for the sake of it. Reply via email Published 02 Jun, 2026

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rose ▪ bud ▪ thorn - may 2026

Reply via email Published 31 May, 2026 It was my wife's birthday, and our wedding anniversary! Baked some cakes and had a great time. Mine is the Donauwelle attached at the bottom of the post, my wife baked the fruit cake. My friend who visited Japan bought us great gifts from there; I got two gachapon (Cinnamoroll and My Melody), some matcha and My Sweet Piano chopsticks. I finally have it in writing and it's been communicated officially that I am my department's data protection coordinator now. I blogged more. I bought myself a big Build-A-Bear Usahana and a tiny one for my bag. Also, new matcha and I restocked my skincare and supplements :) I feel spoiled by myself. I'm having a great time at the gym, going 3 times a week, and incorporating the strength machines now. The added muscle/strength really helps with posture and counteracting the desk sitting. I'm making good progress. I reduced negativity from my online space. I went to a protest for ME/CFS! I have been better with keeping up with emails. Anita, if you are reading this, I cannot reply to you because it says sending key is not valid. We have a bread cutting machine now! Makes it easier to cut the bread my wife is baking for us :) I attended CPDP 2026 in Brussels. I reached Magenta status (35+ translated cases) as a Country Reporter for Noyb. Working on better eating behaviors and no guilt during rest. I am working on slowly booking cool classes and activities for the next few months. Been struggling with my face shape. I have chubbier cheeks anyway naturally, but whenever I need a round of Prednisone or I am stressed or there's hormonal stuff going on, they get bigger (cortisol, water retention). They are bigger lately... definitely a source of discomfort and shame when we live in a time of razor sharp jaws and almost-hollow cheeks. I will now have to do my injections weekly :( Dienogest doesn't work at all for me. Instead of preventing periods, it causes me more of them. Had to get off of it. My soy and rapeseed sensitivities have been extra annoying lately. Can't eat my beloved tofu, and they put rapeseed oil into almost every protein-rich vegan replacement product. I love my lentils, peas and beans, but occasionally I just wanna have some banger vegan köttbullar, schnitzel, or burger patty without a rash, man, or not make everything myself. Not to mention restaurants, or the fact that they drown everything in rapeseed oil based condiments... I haven't been studying nearly as much as I should. Having some issues with the modalities and feeling a bit stressed, like I need more time away from it. I've been very ambitious this month with my blog posting, and it has caused some writer-constipation at times. I had all these drafts ready with some links and loose thoughts already collected, and wanted to write them out fully; but because I set myself arbitrary deadlines or a loose " This needs to be finished and published today! " I felt intense pressure, which made me freeze up... it's really not that serious, but I made it so, for some reason. I also frequently felt stuck between 2-4 equally "important" tasks, posts, topics, whatever, and when I started one I looked at the other and switched, progressing at nothing. Terrible cycle. I moved some planned posts to June and eased up a bit. The menu of my favorite café has been severely reduced and worsened. Also cannot believe that I am paying 10 Euro for a wrap now. The Brussels trip was filled with some disappointments and stress.

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what i read this week - week 22 2026

Thought that after my post on summary distrust, I could share a list of what I read each week. I technically prefer to process and digest what I read into blog posts, but not everything makes it into one, and this is a way to document and keep them, and maybe give others some food for thought. This is not necessarily stuff I fully agree with, I'm just sharing what ended up in my feed reader or was linked in stuff I read, and doesn't include all the personal blog posts I read. I had a lot to catch up on because I read a lot less the previous 2 weeks. AI detection was built for faces - article about how bad AI detection works for war and climate propaganda videos, as the detection mechanisms often rely on biometric human features, and cannot accurately detect fake fire, smoke effects, etc. US Law Enforcement Warns of ‘Anti-Tech Extremism’ - the US gov is aware of the sentiment around AI and is willing to target and suppress it, and they have little paid accomplice firms too who keep surveilling you on social media and in real life meetings if you organize to oppose data centers or voice criticism about them. Iran Israel AI war propaganda - The AI propaganda we see with armed conflicts right now is a dire warning to the future of online video information. Goes more in-depth about detection methods. Can Tracking Private Jets Predict an Imminent Apocalypse? - article about a site that assumes the rich elites will find out about an apocalypse first and try to flee, therefore serving as a warning system to the rest of us. Why GCC Nations Must Move Beyond Content Moderation to Regulate Harm by Design - GCC means Governments in the Gulf Cooperation Council. Article is about how certain countries have already heavily regulated (and, arguably, censored in their favor) social media platform content, so now they should do the same for platform design. Eh... Big Tech Will Not Save Us From the Climate Crisis - Big Tech is moving away from their climate targets and carbon credit bullshit because they wanna do more AI and data centers. The rest they are doing is unproven or not working. Definition of Overburdened Communities in New Jersey - data centers and other similar detrimental undertakings often target overburdened communities, and this is what it means. A Town Hall Too Late - article documenting how citizens near an almost finished data center actually get informed and treated (not well). They only received information well after the thing started to get built. It is being developed by DataOne for the Nebius Group to support AI infrastructure as part of a $17 billion deal with Microsoft. Meta loses High Court challenge - summary of the case and possible fine. Responsible Innovation Harms Modeling on Microsoft's Learning Platform. EU AI Omnibus Deal Changes - more analysis on the proposed AI Act changes, nudifier ban and more, prominent actors, Merz ruining everything for us as usual, etc. The AI Act is not ready for agents - article for a paper that's also listed below; risks of agents, and a need for more guidance from the AI Office. AI’s real threat is worker control and surveillance - about the divide between workers who use AI and those who are managed by it. Higher paid jobs can be supplemented and accelerated by it, while the less fortunate, less earning (warehouse, gig work) are suffering under AI micromanaging them, causing scheduling issues, errors and more, and are more intensely surveilled than ever by AI "bossware". Entzauberung der Digitalen Souveränität - German; deconstructing the term "digital sovereignty" and ideas around it. Mostly about this talk. AI Forensics gegen Big Tech - German; Interview with AI Forensics founder Marc Faddoul about his work and the fear of retribution, especially the fear about getting targeted by Elon Musk. Human Rights Due Diligence - info on what downstream HRDD is. Microsoft took a step towards human rights - very charitable and exaggerated read of Microsoft parting ways with their Israel chief and their ties to the Israeli Ministry of Defense, plus suspending some of their services. The World Is Already Resisting AI - Article on the AI Resist List , a collaboratively built, publicly accessible database documenting acts of resistance to the AI industry from across the world. AI Data Centers: Big Tech's Impact on Electric Bills, Water, and More - looking at different papers and studies around the water and electricity use of big data centers, where they are located, and what local problems they are worsening. Meta’s Hyperion project in Louisiana will need three times as much electricity as the entire city of New Orleans, and is bigger than its main airport. They also gag local officials with NDA's so they can't properly inform the residents. What you need to know about data centers - information on what Earthjustice attorneys are doing to push for stronger environmental protections targeting data centers. The Web Is Being Made Accessible for AI, Not People - llms.txt convention, MCP etc.; companies are more ready to make their services accessible to AI agents than disabled people. This shouldn't be seen as another curb cut phenomenon. Bitte im Omnibus sitzen bleiben, liebe PIMS - German article about the Art. 88 reworks for Personal Information Management Systems that are supposed to enable an easier handling of cookie consent and tracking. Social Media Verbot weder wissenschaftlich fundiert noch effektiv - German; about how there is no scientific proof that social media bans will help, and some stats about how many people support social media bans, and for what age group. Big Tech und Staat - German article on how the state seems to increasingly serve private interests, especially Big Tech. Bundesregierung will KI Einsatz der Polizei - German article about use of AI software for law enforcement, its risks, and what rights are threatened. Polizeigesetznovelle Schleswig-Holstein - German article discussing Schleswig-Holsteins attempt at changing their police law, including real-time facial recognition, behavioral surveillance, online face search and more, from strangers on the street, and even mere victims or witnesses of crimes. Das Internet verrottet - German; about link rot and archiving things properly. Why “Made in Europe” Won’t Fix AI’s Deeper Problems - fitting to my blog post. Big Tech as Executor of the dead - was also a topic at the conference. Praxisfolgen Russmedia Urteil - consequences for social media platforms following the Russmedia court decision C-492/23; Notice-And-Sweep. AI Act: deal on simplification measures, ban on “nudifier” apps - concluding what deal was reached between co-legislators; names the new deadlines for AI compliance. Ratepayer Protection Pledge by the White House - promises and propaganda Microslop's Community-First AI Infrastructure Pledge - promises and propaganda vol. 2 Anthropic's Promises - promises and propaganda vol. 3 Offener Brief der Industrie - Open letter to German politicians by German industry criticizing parts of the digital omnibus; it was silly to read, and I think it is disrespectful to imply that technologies can be discriminated against; that's a different usage and connotation than just using it as "being discriminated from" (aka being differentiated from others). None of the arguments are convincing. Draft guidelines for the implementation of transparency obligations for certain AI systems under Art. 50 AI Act - this is out for commenting until the 3rd of June, by the way. Consent Fatigue entgegenwirken - German policy brief by the TUM think tank about countering consent fatigue. Data Center Fight Guide Einstellungen zum geplanten Einsatz von Palantir-Software II - German phone survey about Palantir use by Verian & campact from Sep 2025. Grok Unleashed - Analyzing Grok nudify uses and extremist propaganda, by AI Forensics. Distinguishing Authentic from AI-Generated Explosions using Spatiotemporal Dynamics - more about how to authenticate conflict-zone explosion footage. AI footage tends to produce much bigger, rounder mushroom plumes that expand quicker. Don't ask me about the math, I don't understand any of that, but I found the rest I could understand very interesting. Embedding Human Rights in Technical Standards - About WITNESS' experience in the Coalition for Content Provenance and Authenticity (C2PA), which is in favor of open technical standards to embed verifiable provenance metadata into digital media files. Helpful explainer here . Better Images of AI - a guide for creators and users on how to use accurate images when talking about AI and what to avoid, as it shapes the narrative. Specifically, they call to avoid the color blue, descending code, human brains, science fiction elements, white robots, anthromorphism and references to the Creation of Adam. That is because it misrepresents capabilities, risks and fears, and who is or can work in or with AI (often, only white men are shown). The AI Climate Hoax : Behind the Curtain of How Big Tech Greenwashes Impacts - talks about how different kinds of AI and its uses as well as carbon credits and overstating the climate benefits of AI can be used to hide the environmental impact of the big, hyped up GenAI. Big Tech’s ‘False Solutions’ to the Climate Crisis - similar thing here. Debunking nuclear power, carbon capture, and artificial intelligence as helping climate change. There are endnotes at each chapter, so don't miss what's after. Tackling Arbitrary Digital Surveillance in the Americas - uses Cajar vs. Colombia for some examples to showcase what needs to change, and the importance of the three-step-analysis. Basically all of this is standard here in the EU, but still needs to be implemented there. TRIED AI Detection Benchmark - paper from WITNESS about their framework that evaluates AI detection tools through a sociotechnical lens (with a focus on adaptability, transparency, accessibility, contextual relevance, and fairness). Wasn't a complete fan, because a chunk of it (for example about resource investments) is rather vague, theoretical and hardly connected with a direct or objective way to measure in practice. The rest is mostly fair, but also rather obvious, and some of it is basically impossible to combine in practice - like only using datasets that comply with data protection and intellectual property laws and are "ethical" with no sensitive data, while the models are supposed to reliably detect an AI generated video of a minority language or niche culture, or have enough datasets (= lots) to accurately detect cultural and local contexts. I can't quite pinpoint what exactly bothers me about it otherwise. I did like the examples of real use cases where things failed. In total, that is roughly ~ 340 pages, if we count an article as two pages on average. Most of it was read on Sunday and Monday (holiday), as I had a lot of free time then. Reply via email Published 30 May, 2026 AI detection was built for faces - article about how bad AI detection works for war and climate propaganda videos, as the detection mechanisms often rely on biometric human features, and cannot accurately detect fake fire, smoke effects, etc. US Law Enforcement Warns of ‘Anti-Tech Extremism’ - the US gov is aware of the sentiment around AI and is willing to target and suppress it, and they have little paid accomplice firms too who keep surveilling you on social media and in real life meetings if you organize to oppose data centers or voice criticism about them. Iran Israel AI war propaganda - The AI propaganda we see with armed conflicts right now is a dire warning to the future of online video information. Goes more in-depth about detection methods. Can Tracking Private Jets Predict an Imminent Apocalypse? - article about a site that assumes the rich elites will find out about an apocalypse first and try to flee, therefore serving as a warning system to the rest of us. Why GCC Nations Must Move Beyond Content Moderation to Regulate Harm by Design - GCC means Governments in the Gulf Cooperation Council. Article is about how certain countries have already heavily regulated (and, arguably, censored in their favor) social media platform content, so now they should do the same for platform design. Eh... Big Tech Will Not Save Us From the Climate Crisis - Big Tech is moving away from their climate targets and carbon credit bullshit because they wanna do more AI and data centers. The rest they are doing is unproven or not working. Definition of Overburdened Communities in New Jersey - data centers and other similar detrimental undertakings often target overburdened communities, and this is what it means. A Town Hall Too Late - article documenting how citizens near an almost finished data center actually get informed and treated (not well). They only received information well after the thing started to get built. It is being developed by DataOne for the Nebius Group to support AI infrastructure as part of a $17 billion deal with Microsoft. Meta loses High Court challenge - summary of the case and possible fine. Responsible Innovation Harms Modeling on Microsoft's Learning Platform. EU AI Omnibus Deal Changes - more analysis on the proposed AI Act changes, nudifier ban and more, prominent actors, Merz ruining everything for us as usual, etc. The AI Act is not ready for agents - article for a paper that's also listed below; risks of agents, and a need for more guidance from the AI Office. AI’s real threat is worker control and surveillance - about the divide between workers who use AI and those who are managed by it. Higher paid jobs can be supplemented and accelerated by it, while the less fortunate, less earning (warehouse, gig work) are suffering under AI micromanaging them, causing scheduling issues, errors and more, and are more intensely surveilled than ever by AI "bossware". Entzauberung der Digitalen Souveränität - German; deconstructing the term "digital sovereignty" and ideas around it. Mostly about this talk. AI Forensics gegen Big Tech - German; Interview with AI Forensics founder Marc Faddoul about his work and the fear of retribution, especially the fear about getting targeted by Elon Musk. Human Rights Due Diligence - info on what downstream HRDD is. Microsoft took a step towards human rights - very charitable and exaggerated read of Microsoft parting ways with their Israel chief and their ties to the Israeli Ministry of Defense, plus suspending some of their services. The World Is Already Resisting AI - Article on the AI Resist List , a collaboratively built, publicly accessible database documenting acts of resistance to the AI industry from across the world. AI Data Centers: Big Tech's Impact on Electric Bills, Water, and More - looking at different papers and studies around the water and electricity use of big data centers, where they are located, and what local problems they are worsening. Meta’s Hyperion project in Louisiana will need three times as much electricity as the entire city of New Orleans, and is bigger than its main airport. They also gag local officials with NDA's so they can't properly inform the residents. What you need to know about data centers - information on what Earthjustice attorneys are doing to push for stronger environmental protections targeting data centers. The Web Is Being Made Accessible for AI, Not People - llms.txt convention, MCP etc.; companies are more ready to make their services accessible to AI agents than disabled people. This shouldn't be seen as another curb cut phenomenon. Bitte im Omnibus sitzen bleiben, liebe PIMS - German article about the Art. 88 reworks for Personal Information Management Systems that are supposed to enable an easier handling of cookie consent and tracking. Social Media Verbot weder wissenschaftlich fundiert noch effektiv - German; about how there is no scientific proof that social media bans will help, and some stats about how many people support social media bans, and for what age group. Big Tech und Staat - German article on how the state seems to increasingly serve private interests, especially Big Tech. Bundesregierung will KI Einsatz der Polizei - German article about use of AI software for law enforcement, its risks, and what rights are threatened. Polizeigesetznovelle Schleswig-Holstein - German article discussing Schleswig-Holsteins attempt at changing their police law, including real-time facial recognition, behavioral surveillance, online face search and more, from strangers on the street, and even mere victims or witnesses of crimes. Das Internet verrottet - German; about link rot and archiving things properly. Why “Made in Europe” Won’t Fix AI’s Deeper Problems - fitting to my blog post. Big Tech as Executor of the dead - was also a topic at the conference. Praxisfolgen Russmedia Urteil - consequences for social media platforms following the Russmedia court decision C-492/23; Notice-And-Sweep. AI Act: deal on simplification measures, ban on “nudifier” apps - concluding what deal was reached between co-legislators; names the new deadlines for AI compliance. Ratepayer Protection Pledge by the White House - promises and propaganda Microslop's Community-First AI Infrastructure Pledge - promises and propaganda vol. 2 Anthropic's Promises - promises and propaganda vol. 3 Offener Brief der Industrie - Open letter to German politicians by German industry criticizing parts of the digital omnibus; it was silly to read, and I think it is disrespectful to imply that technologies can be discriminated against; that's a different usage and connotation than just using it as "being discriminated from" (aka being differentiated from others). None of the arguments are convincing. Draft guidelines for the implementation of transparency obligations for certain AI systems under Art. 50 AI Act - this is out for commenting until the 3rd of June, by the way. Consent Fatigue entgegenwirken - German policy brief by the TUM think tank about countering consent fatigue. Data Center Fight Guide Einstellungen zum geplanten Einsatz von Palantir-Software II - German phone survey about Palantir use by Verian & campact from Sep 2025. Grok Unleashed - Analyzing Grok nudify uses and extremist propaganda, by AI Forensics. Distinguishing Authentic from AI-Generated Explosions using Spatiotemporal Dynamics - more about how to authenticate conflict-zone explosion footage. AI footage tends to produce much bigger, rounder mushroom plumes that expand quicker. Don't ask me about the math, I don't understand any of that, but I found the rest I could understand very interesting. Embedding Human Rights in Technical Standards - About WITNESS' experience in the Coalition for Content Provenance and Authenticity (C2PA), which is in favor of open technical standards to embed verifiable provenance metadata into digital media files. Helpful explainer here . Better Images of AI - a guide for creators and users on how to use accurate images when talking about AI and what to avoid, as it shapes the narrative. Specifically, they call to avoid the color blue, descending code, human brains, science fiction elements, white robots, anthromorphism and references to the Creation of Adam. That is because it misrepresents capabilities, risks and fears, and who is or can work in or with AI (often, only white men are shown). The AI Climate Hoax : Behind the Curtain of How Big Tech Greenwashes Impacts - talks about how different kinds of AI and its uses as well as carbon credits and overstating the climate benefits of AI can be used to hide the environmental impact of the big, hyped up GenAI. Big Tech’s ‘False Solutions’ to the Climate Crisis - similar thing here. Debunking nuclear power, carbon capture, and artificial intelligence as helping climate change. There are endnotes at each chapter, so don't miss what's after. Tackling Arbitrary Digital Surveillance in the Americas - uses Cajar vs. Colombia for some examples to showcase what needs to change, and the importance of the three-step-analysis. Basically all of this is standard here in the EU, but still needs to be implemented there. TRIED AI Detection Benchmark - paper from WITNESS about their framework that evaluates AI detection tools through a sociotechnical lens (with a focus on adaptability, transparency, accessibility, contextual relevance, and fairness). Wasn't a complete fan, because a chunk of it (for example about resource investments) is rather vague, theoretical and hardly connected with a direct or objective way to measure in practice. The rest is mostly fair, but also rather obvious, and some of it is basically impossible to combine in practice - like only using datasets that comply with data protection and intellectual property laws and are "ethical" with no sensitive data, while the models are supposed to reliably detect an AI generated video of a minority language or niche culture, or have enough datasets (= lots) to accurately detect cultural and local contexts. I can't quite pinpoint what exactly bothers me about it otherwise. I did like the examples of real use cases where things failed. Zugänglichkeit von De-Personalisierungsoptionen und Meldeverfahren auf sehr großen Online-Plattformen Decisions I had to read to translate for noyb: 2025-0.875.804 and W171 2305420-1

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AI blog question challenge

Rishabh made an AI blog question challenge and invited me to fill it out. Let's go! 1. How was your first experience with AI models? I used to have fun playing around with NeuralBlender, and used it to inspire glitch art of mine that I drew. Back when ChatGPT launched, I used it to teach myself HTML and CSS. 2. Do you use AI or are you completely against using it? On average, I use it once a week or less; weeks can go by where I don't use it. Due to my field of interest, I want to keep up to date on some use cases and capabilities, and make my own experiences instead of relying on what the hype online says. I feel like I can't properly write about my criticisms or privacy concerns if I don't use it at all, or don't test the use cases people rave about (which often leave me deeply disappointed). Occasionally, my boss will also ask me to trial out some use cases at work. Situations I use it for in private when I am not testing what others are doing: 3. Do you have any preference among different models, for example Claude vs ChatGPT? If yes, how do you choose? I only use ChatGPT and Lumo, and I'm trying to permanently move to Lumo. I no longer want to use anything made by OpenAI. 4. What aspect of AI models do you like and what do you not like? I hate the sycophancy and wordiness. Even when I adjust settings to be short and precise, they still yap. I don't like all the subheadings and bullet point lists, I prefer a full text. I turned emojis off. I also hate when they constantly repeat my name, so I removed that again. I also hate how mean Lumo can get; I want no sycophancy and the fucker will start bullying me for some reason. I like the aspect of being able to ask something when no one else is available (either due to the sensitive matter, embarrassment, or time issues). 5. How do you feel about AI generated images? Does it annoy you if someone uses them in a blog post? Seeing an AI generated image on a blog post is about as nice as being greeted by a steaming turd. Even worse when I know it isn't a bot blog and the person spent time crafting the text, only to include a graphic that has several errors, spelling mistakes and other unfitting or illogical stuff. Do you have absolutely no shame or quality standards? You wanna tell me you looked at that picture that said "thseism" instead of "theme" somewhere in it and thought " Yup, that's it, best I can do, hope my readers enjoy this total eye candy, can't see anything wrong with that "? What is it supposed to convey to me as a reader - that you didn't even look at it, or that you were too lazy to formulate a second or third prompt? 6. Internet is flooded with AI slop now, full of generated text, images, audio and videos. How do you filter it from authentic human creation? Do you have a strategy? I'm not on any of the big platforms or their replacements, and I consume the internet through my highly curated RSS feed reader where I follow real people who don't use it like that, or the Discover page. It's easier to avoid when your internet use is limited, in a niche, and mostly used for blogging, reading and studying. I have a good grip on detecting generated text and images, but I've noticed that videos and gifs can easily fool me by now. 7. Are you hopeful for a better future with A.I. or a dystopian one? Hard to say; I think AI is absolutely a dystopian nightmare when used in surveillance and war. For the rest, I assume the bubble will pop and few dedicated models for specific niches and use cases will remain that have proven to be useful and worth the cost, and the rest will fade away. I hope it can do some good in healthcare, but that may be wishful thinking. If AI went away completely, I would not miss it. Reply via email Published 28 May, 2026 I can't find something specific (like a specific word, jargon, saying, concept, item name etc.) via normal search engine use or can't find a clear explanation for something I find difficult to understand. Needing an easy language version for a really difficult paragraph, law text passage, case part etc. that I can't seem to crack on my own. Career and job questions I am unable to ask anyone both offline or online, because people I know in real life can't help, and I'd have to reveal too much to others if I asked online. Career trajectory brainstorming, 3-year and 5-year plan stuff.

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i want a nemesis... or do i?

Today I partially joked in a chat I think at this time of my life, I would like to have a nemesis. Everyone has people they don't like and find annoying, I do too. But a nemesis? There's something you can't stand about them, but you recognize they are really good at something, and can admire some things about them too. You might piss each other off, but there is a good kind of competition between you. It has to be mutual, though. One-sided nemesis stuff is just weird. On a more serious note, I guess it is an expression of my search for someone equally passionate to help me grow and challenge me in some topics. We had another Country Reporter meeting organized by noyb yesterday, and this time, the presentation also featured questions we discussed in breakout rooms, something we never did before. Really loved that. Made me realize again how much I am craving and missing actually talking to professionals about data protection and privacy in a way that is more theoretical/academical or covering areas I know less about, instead of being geared towards laypeople's issues in practice. Blogging is fine, emailing some people is fine; but it is rather solitary or with great delay, and little to no pushback with good arguments that make me dig deeper. Writing helps sort things out and is a great opportunity to research or to revisit stuff I read, but it isn't a balanced peer debate and it doesn't make me aware of blind spots. I do have our DPO at work as mentor, but we meet roughly every 2-3 months or less, and I think I can't make it a more regular thing, as he's very busy. I try to make it to conferences 1-2x a year, but that's also mostly listening to presentations or panels without really getting a back and forth going. The social aspect there is more about networking, status signaling, or passive learning than intellectual sparring. I try to read articles, blog posts and papers that challenge me, but it's not enough as I can't discuss them with anybody. My understanding of things is not getting pressure-tested, I want to need to research more and formulate arguments in conversation. I thought about how I could address this need, and brainstormed about a digital roundtable every other week where the group discusses a DPA decision, court case, new guidance, articles, news, question etc. each time for 60-90 minutes. What would be important is that I am not completely sold on the idea because of scheduling friction, recording concerns and people's general aversion to digital meetings especially without camera, but asynchronous means wouldn't scratch the itch either. I need the conversational intensity and immediacy, and I crave people who are opinionated enough to argue, but not status-defensive and comfortable to change their mind. I'll let that one marinate for a bit still. :) Reply via email Published 28 May, 2026 not just one person supplies the discussion material, but everyone takes turns or signs up to do the next meeting when they find something worthwhile. an explicit expectation that it's okay to disagree. Chatham House Rule, no recordings. diversity in backgrounds (and identity) - laypeople, professionals, field, (gender and location) etc., because even just all being focused on the legal perspective or the activist lens can get pretty monotonous, and professionals don't just wanna lecture laypeople; it gets more interesting when you have people from software engineering, platform governance, cybersecurity, social sciences etc. in it too that all bring a different part to the table, especially technical angles. can't actually be that big, because the more people are there, the less people can actually speak, and many will then just silently attend. There needs to be enough room for everyone to speak if they want to, and not just 2-4 people going at it as everyone else listens. people shouldn't just be there because I'm there.

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